Aug 22, 2007 02:34
hyperventilation, faintness, anxiety, paranoia.
"it's your body's refusal," she offerred, "a physiological reaction, a rejection."
she is right, i can't take my body to a place it doesn't want to go. it would be like consciously trying to rip off my own fingernails. call it cowardice, call it a breakdown. give it a name if it helps you understand it better.
i can't go to san francisco.