孤掌难鸣
Perplexed and frustrated, and just a wee bit cross.
I can't quite understand how you can say "Oh sure, let's meet up" or "Yeah, let me know when you're free" when we chat via SMSes or MSN or whatever, yet when I send you an SMS to ask if you're free to meet up, the message gets lost somewhere in the unknown vacuum of limbo. It makes me wonder if the SMS even reached you, but it must have, considering we were just having a small conversation via SMS just a few moments ago. And I'd be fine if this just happened once and that was it, but no, it has to happen again.
I don't want to think about how, since graduation I've been the one coordinating and calling for meet-ups almost every single time, and you sometimes say "I'll arrange the next one!" and it never happens, because there's no point splitting hairs about inconsequential things like these when you're friends. I honestly want to see you and talk to you and find out how you are, and I appreciate that you too sometimes send me an unexpected message on whatever online/mobile medium that brightens up my day, but is it so difficult to just respond to a simple question? Has something changed in the equation that I was not made aware of? Tell me, if that is so.
Strangely enough I'm not going into emo-mode as I usually do; perhaps I'm past that phase where I let these things tear my emotional stability to shreds. It's not that I can't be bothered or that it is no longer important to me, but moping around doesn't do any good anyway. Life goes on, and I will just keep trying, because you're important to me, and I'd like to believe that there's some perfectly good rational reason for your actions, things that are just not visible to me at the moment.
And I hope you have a happy weekend. :)
P.S. Amidst all this inane personal drama another of my friends, while out with me yesterday, got all worked up talking about how juniors are commenting all over FB about my notes and some of them saying disparaging things about it. I've seen the comments before and wasn't really bothered by them. But I was touched that he got so agitated and indignant on my behalf. It really melts something deep within me I never knew was there before. :)
I can't quite understand how you can say "Oh sure, let's meet up" or "Yeah, let me know when you're free" when we chat via SMSes or MSN or whatever, yet when I send you an SMS to ask if you're free to meet up, the message gets lost somewhere in the unknown vacuum of limbo. It makes me wonder if the SMS even reached you, but it must have, considering we were just having a small conversation via SMS just a few moments ago. And I'd be fine if this just happened once and that was it, but no, it has to happen again.
I don't want to think about how, since graduation I've been the one coordinating and calling for meet-ups almost every single time, and you sometimes say "I'll arrange the next one!" and it never happens, because there's no point splitting hairs about inconsequential things like these when you're friends. I honestly want to see you and talk to you and find out how you are, and I appreciate that you too sometimes send me an unexpected message on whatever online/mobile medium that brightens up my day, but is it so difficult to just respond to a simple question? Has something changed in the equation that I was not made aware of? Tell me, if that is so.
Strangely enough I'm not going into emo-mode as I usually do; perhaps I'm past that phase where I let these things tear my emotional stability to shreds. It's not that I can't be bothered or that it is no longer important to me, but moping around doesn't do any good anyway. Life goes on, and I will just keep trying, because you're important to me, and I'd like to believe that there's some perfectly good rational reason for your actions, things that are just not visible to me at the moment.
And I hope you have a happy weekend. :)
P.S. Amidst all this inane personal drama another of my friends, while out with me yesterday, got all worked up talking about how juniors are commenting all over FB about my notes and some of them saying disparaging things about it. I've seen the comments before and wasn't really bothered by them. But I was touched that he got so agitated and indignant on my behalf. It really melts something deep within me I never knew was there before. :)