Trying Something New (1/2)
Pairing: Heechul/Leeteuk
Raiting: R (To be safe)
Genre: Romance/Fluff/Bondage
A/N: You know the deal, I don't own them, soo... yeah. Anyhow, I was watching recent live Super Junior preformances earlier and I kept seeing Heechul and Leeteuk and how they are so close, and GUESS WHAT! Boom! This came out of my little brain. ^.^ Enjoy it!
Summary: Heechul had always cared for his hyung, but he always loved HanGeng, and Leeteuk always loved Kangin. But, what happens when HanGeng and Kangin leave? Should they face their sorrow independently? Or should they lean on each other?
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"Why?" was all Heechul asked when HanGeng told him about the lawsuit. "Heechul, what do you mean 'why?'? They won't let me go back to my home, they won't let me see my family!" He had already told his boyfriend this, but Heechul just couldn't seem to grasp it. They both knew, very well, the consequences of picking a fight with Sooman; there was no coming back. A single tear slid down Heechul's cheek. "Hankyung, I know it's hard, and i know you want to see your family again, but... Hannie...." Heechul began to sob, "don't you realise that you're the only family I have?" HanGeng had to look away, he hated seeing Heechul cry like this, especially over him. "Chullie..." HanGeng cooed, wiping his boyfriend's tears away, "I love you. And even though I'm going back for a while, it doesn't mean anything will be different. I'll come back." HanGeng thought what he said would cheer his hyung up, but it only made him cry harder. "Chullie, please stop crying." Hangeng pleaded, unable to bear the sight any longer. Heechul only shook his head and left the room.
~Meanwhile....
Leeteuk sat down beside Kangin on the couch. "Whatcha doinnnnnn?" He asked, cutely, poking his boyfriend in the side. "Hummm. Watching TV." Kangin said, not even turning to look back at his lover. They sat in silence for a few minutes. "Kim Youngwoon~ what's wrong?" Leeteuk said, frowing. "Nothing, Park Jungsoo~" Kangin said, smiling at the use of their real names. They watched more of the TV show for several more minutes. "Teukie..." Kangin whispered, turning to get his boyfriend's attenion. Leeteuk looked at him, face reading 'go on, tell me'. "You know how I've been really upset about letting the fans down with my hit and run, right? And how I'm really upset about being suspended from activities?" Leeteuk slightly nodded, afraid of what was to come. "Well... I talked to Sooman, and... well... I'm going to the army." Leeteuk almost laughed. He was kidding, right? Kangin? The army? "Kangin, stop messing around." Leeteuk said, grinning at the younger boy. "Hyung, I would, but i'm not messing around." Leeteuk looked into Kangin's eyes and saw the seriousness. He felt like crying now. "Kangin... why? You're only suspended until next summer. You can't go... not for two years." Leeteuk said, shakily, starting to panic. Kangin pulled his boyfriend into a hug. "Shhh. It'll be fine. I'll have breaks when I can come home." At this, Leeteuk lost it. "B-but... who's going to cuddle up with me when I have a stressful day? And who's going to reassure my strength when the pressures of being leader get to me? And who's going to kiss me on the nose when I screw up on stage?" Kangin felt guilty listening to his hyung rant on about how lonely he would be. He didn't even consider how much Leeteuk leaned on him for strength. "I dunno, hyung. It's only two years, right? I'll be back before you know it." Leeteuk looked up at him, wiping his tears with the back of his hand. "But.... but what if..." he began to whisper until his voice was almost inaudiable, "what if you get killed?!" Kangin just shook his head, not even letting this idea have time to be processed. "I will not get killed. I'll make sure of it." He smiled down at his hyung, but Leeteuk only cried.
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The tears kept coming, and yet, HanGeng didn't stop throwing his stuff into his suitcase. Heechul sat on the bed, sobbing desperately, pleaing, "Don't go, Hankyung, please, don't leave me here...." HanGeng had to block it all out, though, or else he'd never see his family again. He threw the last of his clothing and belongings into the big black suitcase on te floor and zipped it shut. "Are you coming to the airport with me?" HanGeng asked, ignoring all of Heechul's pleas and cries. Heechul nodded his head 'yes', but refused to get up from his spot. Before they went to the car, they shared one last kiss, only because they knew they wouldn't be able to in the car or at the airport. The paparazzi are crazy anymore. They already wore disguises, simply because HanGeng's whereabouts were to be secret.
Heechul gripped the steering wheel tightly, before HanGeng got out of the car. "Hankyung~ I'm begging you. Why won't you stay?" He felt the tears coming back as HanGeng got out and went to get his suitcases. "Heechul, I need to see my family. I'll be back, I promise." HanGeng said, making sure no one was looking and leaned back into the car for another quick kiss. The car door shut and that was the last time Heechul saw the only man he had ever truely loved. A single tear strolled down his face and he stayed parked for a while after HanGeng's firgure disappeared behind the glass doors.
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It was July 5th, the day Kangin left for the military. It was a sad day for every member of Super Junior, but it was the end of the world to Leeteuk. Kangin wasn't just his boyfriend, Kangin was his world, his everything. He went to Kangin when anything went wrong, and just like that, everything was perfect again. And the fact that he didn't even get to see him one last time before he left, made everything worse.
Heechul sat in the kitchen, watching Leeteuk through the hallway. He was curled up on the couch, uncontrolably sobbing. Almost like he did when HanGeng left him... He sort of pittied his hyung, knowing the exact feeling of losing everything in a matter of seconds. The only other people home were Donghae and Kyuhyun, and of course, they weren't anywhere to be found. Idiots, they're probably playing video games. Heechul thought to himself. Hmph, video games. Heehcul hadn't touched one since HanGeng left. He felt no need to, he didn't get the slightest bit of joy out of it. No one noticed, but Heechul was slowly sipping into this dark place that he couldn't get out of. He was drowning, slowly, and no matter how hard he kicked, or however desperately he swimmed towards the surface, his oxygen was running out. He looked back at his hyung and saw himself several months ago. He knew it would only get worse, too. He felt the urge to comfort Leeteuk, but declined it. Leeteuk was strong, Heechul was sure he'd be okay.
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Sooooo.... do we likey? There's gonna be a part two here soon. ^.^ After I finish this one up, I'm going to write an Eunhae fic, and i'm warning you, It is going to be tear jerking. No, no character deaths, I couldn't do that. Just.... you'll see. :p