[2010 002] Why couldn't i forget you?
Why? Why did i suddenly thought of you when i have forgotten you that 1 year ago you went away?
I don't know why, yesterday i had been like this pathetic state, trying to get back what we had lost. I had been fine all along. Living my life, i am happy. But yesterday. I broke down. Thinking that everything is possible. During the conversation my heart skipped a beat whenever i felt hope in your words. But soon it got smashed and it happened and happened again. Every sentence and everything you replied i shed a tear. I wish that every tear that i shed could bring up the hope.
And when you said "I feel the same way too". I lost it. Utterly. For a moment i felt happy. Then realised that no matter what your answer will be, it is still impossible for us. If it was possible, it would not be the same way.
I hate my cowardliness i hate the fact that if i had been just a step ahead, everything would be so much different. Yesterday i tried overcoming it and tell you what i felt. But till now i am back at square 1. I won't think of you until maybe the next year when i start to be all pathetic and squishy.
But till now i still have that small hope in me about us.
P.S: I know you probably won't be reading this. Maybe you might see it from my facebook. But all this is just what i wanted to say.
I don't know why, yesterday i had been like this pathetic state, trying to get back what we had lost. I had been fine all along. Living my life, i am happy. But yesterday. I broke down. Thinking that everything is possible. During the conversation my heart skipped a beat whenever i felt hope in your words. But soon it got smashed and it happened and happened again. Every sentence and everything you replied i shed a tear. I wish that every tear that i shed could bring up the hope.
And when you said "I feel the same way too". I lost it. Utterly. For a moment i felt happy. Then realised that no matter what your answer will be, it is still impossible for us. If it was possible, it would not be the same way.
I hate my cowardliness i hate the fact that if i had been just a step ahead, everything would be so much different. Yesterday i tried overcoming it and tell you what i felt. But till now i am back at square 1. I won't think of you until maybe the next year when i start to be all pathetic and squishy.
But till now i still have that small hope in me about us.
P.S: I know you probably won't be reading this. Maybe you might see it from my facebook. But all this is just what i wanted to say.