There's No Good in this Bye.
I purposely avoided anything with caffeine after 9 this morning. The first night is always the hardest which means I will have an isssue getting to sleep soundly tonight. I know it sounds pathetic because I'm whining like the only woman who has to be separated from their boyfriend for lengths of time. But the feeling just sucks. There's no eloquent way to put it anymore. I know who I want to be with. I know how our relationship works and the more time we spend together the more we work. Except I can't grow on that I can't take it elsewhere because it constantly gets taken away from me. I go through this every month and it never gets easier.