Boys With Girlfriends -- Chapter Nine

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Title: Boys With Girlfriends
Author: audreyii_fic
Fandom: Twilight (Team Jacob)
Rating: NC-17
Characters: Jacob, Bella, Edward (genderswap)
Genre: Romance/Humor/Angst
Warnings: Bad language and explicit sexuality.

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Re: My Body Is A Cage part two...

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They know they are huge and outweigh Lucas by a minimum of 50 lbs, and to be perfectly fair Lucas' only crime up to this point is dating a Vampire (which I can see as being a Really Bad Thing in their eyes) and "leading on" Ruth.
It's about as bad as that. Essentially, Lucas has, from their perspective, completely changed Ruth from a happy-go-lucky girl to someone who can barely hold her shit together... and they didn't really like him from the beginning. (The leechlover thing.) They wouldn't do that for Leah, but Leah is a) older, b) has the weird relationship with Sam, c) wouldn't be involved with someone who fucked around with vampires, and d) kind of awful to all of them. Essentially, they *like* Ruth. But I also always found it profoundly unrealistic that the Pack never gave Bella the cold shoulder; that was definitely a Mary Sue Meyer wank. No would could possibly hate Bella.

The Pack's being unnecessarily mean, but I didn't deliberately write it for them to beat up on Lucas for the hell of it. That being said, it says something about me that that *didn't* bug me all that much. Maybe I just expect friends/siblings to be vicious on behalf of their own? Hmm.

And the real Ruth, the hurt sixteen-year-old in a too-mature body breaks through. Everything is so big for them, everything is life-or-death, even when it's not.
In this circumstance it actually is, but yeah, for real sixteen year olds? The first time you feel this stuff you can't imagine you'll survive it, because you haven't yet. There are people who miss being teenagers. I would rather eat nails than relive those years.

Ruth is really trying desperately not to get hurt... not to get hurt again even though she doesn't quite realize she brought the event of That Night on herself.
Unfortunately, I'm not sure she ever will. Maybe many, many years down the line... but I don't think society really teaches girls these days that they're in the wrong when they're sexually rejected. It's a reflection on the boy, not on the girl. (I'd say certain religious contexts are the exception. Resisting the temptation of Eve and all that.) If there's no one to tell her how wrong she was, how will she figure it out?

This. FOREVER. Two sexually frustrated teenagers with obvious affection and slight infatuation with each other, alone in a tent in the middle of a goddamned snowstorm. OF COURSE THIS WOULD HAPPEN.
I always found it somewhat implausible that it didn't in canon. But then, I also felt it was a stretch to have Lucas reject Ruth in his bedroom; the idea that he would resist twice seemed beyond the realm of possibility to me. That probably says more about me and my concept of gender (and teenagers) than it does about the characters or the story.

They are tired and young and the situation they're in is far too much for a 30-year-old to handle, let alone two kids.
Canon does not get enough sympathy for this. Even Bella probably deserves more leeway from readers on the subject. (Though I think we're less inclined to give it since she gets a free pass from *every other character*.)