All we are is dust in the wind.......
ugh.....I hate rainy days. After today, after talking and drinking coffee with Dave's mom, after watching the rainstorm.......
The closest to my perfection is so out of reach right now. I know it is not my fault, but it's just not fair. The one person that I want to talk to right now is the one person that I can't talk to. I love the signs he sends me, but it just doesn't compare to hearing his voice. I still have his scent with me, I just pray it doesn't go away. I go to sleep hugging his favorite blanket tight hoping by the morning it turns into him. I close my eyes hoping he stops by my dreams every night, I then awake to no interest in life. Everything just seems like it drives in the slow lane. I just wish I can feel the warmth of his hug, he hugged me willingly all the time, he hugged me with love. I want it to be like before, I wanna be the one girl that has that glow on her face because it's the happiest she has ever been. But I then again remind myself over and over again that faith and hope is what will get me through these hards times.
......I am alright for the most part. I just hate rainy days. They make me think too hard. I also came to a conclusion that Real World is just as depressing.
~AuDrEe <3