Day 2
Today is the second day of school, and I am nervous. While the switch remains a good thing, it also is something that makes me feel quite lost and lonely. At my old school, I was known and loved by everyone, as I also knew and loved (almost) everyone. Here, I know no one, and am not loved and respected yet. At breakfast yesterday, I sat all alone, and felt so eh. The workshops went well, and were not the worst thing at all. I met two of the other classroom teachers for my site, but they will both be teaching 12:1:4, which is not the same, and I'm not sure if they liked me or not, as I am more prepared and that seemed to be weird to them. I hope so, though, because they seem fairly nice, and are young, and it would be good to know and make good friends at my new school.
Today I will be meeting my paras, and learning some things about my students, and it makes me nervous. We will be decorating the classroom and arranging the furniture, and I am very good at these things and can be trusted to manage them very well. My new paras will not know that, and will, I'm sure try to get me to keep the same arrangement and everything as has always been in there. This might be fine, as I have not seen the room, or it might not. But I am never good at asserting myself first, not when I am just meeting people. I like to build a relationship, get along, and then assert myself. So I am nervous.
Today I will be meeting my paras, and learning some things about my students, and it makes me nervous. We will be decorating the classroom and arranging the furniture, and I am very good at these things and can be trusted to manage them very well. My new paras will not know that, and will, I'm sure try to get me to keep the same arrangement and everything as has always been in there. This might be fine, as I have not seen the room, or it might not. But I am never good at asserting myself first, not when I am just meeting people. I like to build a relationship, get along, and then assert myself. So I am nervous.