I'm at a crossroad....
Right now i feel like i am at a point of choice in my life....
I can choose to be happy or sad
I can choose to serve God or not
I can choose alot of things but the question is what do i choose.
The left path or the right
Do i disappoint my loved ones...and do what i want
IS that selfish?
I dont really know what I am fighting over...
My heart is heavy right now...not with sadness or happiness...I am just really unsure of what...
What I need right now more than anything is an entire weekend of friends,
no school, no work, no drama, no stress
Just a bunch of my friends staying up late by the campfire enjoying the outdoors, the fire, S'mores, the cold, and eachother,
I need to laugh, to tell funny stories, to enjoy company without any expectations or fears
I want freedom to speak my mind and heart with everyone
laugh at eachothers stories and have some hot cocoa and cider
but not at my house somewhere where there is no time constraints and I can just be me...
I feel the need to be completely real....I'm ready to hold nothing back......
God please help me be Authentic....That is what my heart truly desires....Authenticity....I am tired of ppls acts...fronts of being strong and fronts of being someone they are not... I desire honesty and mostly you....
I can choose to be happy or sad
I can choose to serve God or not
I can choose alot of things but the question is what do i choose.
The left path or the right
Do i disappoint my loved ones...and do what i want
IS that selfish?
I dont really know what I am fighting over...
My heart is heavy right now...not with sadness or happiness...I am just really unsure of what...
What I need right now more than anything is an entire weekend of friends,
no school, no work, no drama, no stress
Just a bunch of my friends staying up late by the campfire enjoying the outdoors, the fire, S'mores, the cold, and eachother,
I need to laugh, to tell funny stories, to enjoy company without any expectations or fears
I want freedom to speak my mind and heart with everyone
laugh at eachothers stories and have some hot cocoa and cider
but not at my house somewhere where there is no time constraints and I can just be me...
I feel the need to be completely real....I'm ready to hold nothing back......
God please help me be Authentic....That is what my heart truly desires....Authenticity....I am tired of ppls acts...fronts of being strong and fronts of being someone they are not... I desire honesty and mostly you....