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i am completly in love with the new Doves cd. but anyway.
i'm not feeling too well. and when you'r eat school, and not feeling too well, the world shrinks down until it is just...you. i'm feeling sick. i don't want to be here. so, this is what i was thinking about, in the day that i was feeling sick and was mostly on a different world.
....
wooooOOOOOOOOOooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooOOOOOOOO
or. my mind is completly, completly empty.
anyway. my favorite teacher (haha heyyy she's only 24 and went to china with me and some other cool people on the exchange which was fun, and not as dorky as this all sounds. but whatever, not the point) is moving to spain next year because...something new? something restless? i wonder how it would be to just pick up and ...go. i mean, sure, we all talk about doing it (ahh this boyfriend/girlfriend/friend/bitch/school/test/paper/life is making everything so shitty for me!!1 i wish i could just go and never come back wahhh style) but let's be honest - if you are actually going to leave after something like that, chances are you're going to be really annoying in the place where you go, and that you'll come back, and come back the same person as you were before you left (calmer doesn't count).
because that's not even leaving. that's getting away. you can get away in your own mind. i'm talking about real, tangrible, back your bangs and go somewhere new, somewhere where you're uncomfortable for the first bit, somewhere that was never your home.
i can't wait until i do it, until i have cleared all the necessary levels in order to get money and a ticket and somewhat more of experience type stuff to bounce back off of when my losely scribbled plans go where i learn i don't want to be.
how are you today?
i'm not feeling too well. and when you'r eat school, and not feeling too well, the world shrinks down until it is just...you. i'm feeling sick. i don't want to be here. so, this is what i was thinking about, in the day that i was feeling sick and was mostly on a different world.
....
wooooOOOOOOOOOooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooOOOOOOOO
or. my mind is completly, completly empty.
anyway. my favorite teacher (haha heyyy she's only 24 and went to china with me and some other cool people on the exchange which was fun, and not as dorky as this all sounds. but whatever, not the point) is moving to spain next year because...something new? something restless? i wonder how it would be to just pick up and ...go. i mean, sure, we all talk about doing it (ahh this boyfriend/girlfriend/friend/bitch/school/test/paper/life is making everything so shitty for me!!1 i wish i could just go and never come back wahhh style) but let's be honest - if you are actually going to leave after something like that, chances are you're going to be really annoying in the place where you go, and that you'll come back, and come back the same person as you were before you left (calmer doesn't count).
because that's not even leaving. that's getting away. you can get away in your own mind. i'm talking about real, tangrible, back your bangs and go somewhere new, somewhere where you're uncomfortable for the first bit, somewhere that was never your home.
i can't wait until i do it, until i have cleared all the necessary levels in order to get money and a ticket and somewhat more of experience type stuff to bounce back off of when my losely scribbled plans go where i learn i don't want to be.
how are you today?