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in the world of intenets i can portray my feelings to the whole world in about 20 seconds. unfortunately i odnt want anyone konwing these things about me. you know, the depression, the guilt, the hating of almost everyone in my life. i really wish there was someone who just got it all. someone who gets it... ha
i know its not healthy to bottle this up. another phrase i hear all to often in live. i fucing hate life sometimes. when im in the moment, i own it. life is my bitch. i enjoy it. but from moment to moment. the down time. the middle phase. i want to die. money. college. work. family. i can name huge factors in in of those that suck.
i dont have money i cant go to college i cant make money to pay for it. i cant stand my family. im miserable. i have no will. and all around me are factors that just dont help.
im miserable.
i know its not healthy to bottle this up. another phrase i hear all to often in live. i fucing hate life sometimes. when im in the moment, i own it. life is my bitch. i enjoy it. but from moment to moment. the down time. the middle phase. i want to die. money. college. work. family. i can name huge factors in in of those that suck.
i dont have money i cant go to college i cant make money to pay for it. i cant stand my family. im miserable. i have no will. and all around me are factors that just dont help.
im miserable.