Garden State
I woke up at 10 today. Didn't want to be up yet though. i want to break from my routine if only for a day. and that i did. woke up at 2. had 3 missed calls, kinda worried bout that. it was just nolan janiga and comcast. there was a show today, part of me wanted to go. but most of me didnt. i could've gotten covered today, had the 430 shift. thats not hard to get rid of. but i choose to work, and then to close, and then to take tomorrows shift.
1 thing came into my brain today. i figured out why i cant figure out what i want to do with my life. and its rather simple. i dont know what i want to be as a career. but i do know what i want to be in life, and thats just thin. whenever anyone says i have no future. maybe i dont, in the workplace. but my lifetime asspiration, is just to be thin. and im on my way.
today i made myself a nutrisystem meal. it was good. i enjoyed it. chicken pasta parmisian. then at work i had a wrap. for some reason, the thought of a slice of pizza didnt entice me. at all. really didnt crave it at all. i was happy with that.
got ready for work at 4, didnt start till 430. got gas and an arnold palmer. it was good. 150cals. not too bad. but water is better. i drank 4 cups at work. i feel accomplished.
i miss the internet. i miss chatting with midnight buddies. porn. livejournal. music. im glad its here.
i had a burger when i got home, it was tasty. its funny i never really like burgers, but lately their so good. a new favorite maybe.
i talked alot with vicki today. in high school she was thin, now shes kinda fat. and im glad. for one, she filled out really good. like put it in the right places. and 2, she is approachable. we talked today, were kinda close to each other and i wasnt nervous. i know i got self confidence, but my body is always an issue. but she was up in my grill and we talked about her school and work, i felt accomplished. she is a very pretty girl. brown hair brown eyes. i enjoy working with her.
i started reading the four agreements today. it was the book i bought from styx and stonz. i like that store. feel comfortable there. i opened up to a nice lady there. she is a worldly motherly figure, i can tell. so sweet. we talked about wishful thinking, spirits, what not. anywho, i got this book and the begining was far fetched i guess. hell on earth deal. but then i read the 1st agreement, impeccable with your word. and god it was eye opening. i cant wait to read more, or it again. i want to learn. self improvement is key.
i made 78 bucks today.
i got home and popped in garden state, it waits for me now. the opening scene played coldplay. dont panic. god i miss old coldplay. it brings me to a happier place.
Chad
1 thing came into my brain today. i figured out why i cant figure out what i want to do with my life. and its rather simple. i dont know what i want to be as a career. but i do know what i want to be in life, and thats just thin. whenever anyone says i have no future. maybe i dont, in the workplace. but my lifetime asspiration, is just to be thin. and im on my way.
today i made myself a nutrisystem meal. it was good. i enjoyed it. chicken pasta parmisian. then at work i had a wrap. for some reason, the thought of a slice of pizza didnt entice me. at all. really didnt crave it at all. i was happy with that.
got ready for work at 4, didnt start till 430. got gas and an arnold palmer. it was good. 150cals. not too bad. but water is better. i drank 4 cups at work. i feel accomplished.
i miss the internet. i miss chatting with midnight buddies. porn. livejournal. music. im glad its here.
i had a burger when i got home, it was tasty. its funny i never really like burgers, but lately their so good. a new favorite maybe.
i talked alot with vicki today. in high school she was thin, now shes kinda fat. and im glad. for one, she filled out really good. like put it in the right places. and 2, she is approachable. we talked today, were kinda close to each other and i wasnt nervous. i know i got self confidence, but my body is always an issue. but she was up in my grill and we talked about her school and work, i felt accomplished. she is a very pretty girl. brown hair brown eyes. i enjoy working with her.
i started reading the four agreements today. it was the book i bought from styx and stonz. i like that store. feel comfortable there. i opened up to a nice lady there. she is a worldly motherly figure, i can tell. so sweet. we talked about wishful thinking, spirits, what not. anywho, i got this book and the begining was far fetched i guess. hell on earth deal. but then i read the 1st agreement, impeccable with your word. and god it was eye opening. i cant wait to read more, or it again. i want to learn. self improvement is key.
i made 78 bucks today.
i got home and popped in garden state, it waits for me now. the opening scene played coldplay. dont panic. god i miss old coldplay. it brings me to a happier place.
Chad