marlboro is my best friend
i'm sitting here... nothing... jakes playing guitar on my couch... i've been chain smoking since i got this nice pack this morning... i'm stupid, i'm worthless... i'm bored with myself... i need money... i want to kill everyone i see minus a few select people. maybe stefanie's better off without me... it seems like i'm nothing but a menace to her and her happyness... but she's my world... not a day has passed (and this may sound corny, but it's very fucking true) that i have not thought about her and wanted to see her very badly... just hold her... i can't stand this... i want to be with her forever... and just talk things out... i've gotta go jakes mother's here to get us...