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well today is technically an hour and 8 minutes into turkey day... and up until 11:30(am) ill be spending it with my family, for 4 of those hours they're gna be asleep, and for the other 6 i'm going to be asleep... so half an hour is going to be with my family... and oddly enough i chose for it to be this way, because the feeling isnt there anymore... this is the first year i'm not forced to spend today with them, n i kinda miss how things used to be, with that feeling of closure
but this is how i want it to be now, because i cant change whats happening, so im looking forward to today, for the first time in years...
im gna be spending it with kirra and her family... i dunno what it is about her family, they actually accepted me for the most part which is weird, i was invited to their family get-together and actually expected to go... it almost seems wrong to me, with the way i am, and the way i see myself, and the morals i have... im not used to what me and kirra have. not at all. dont get me wrong i absolutely love it. but im not used to it, almost to the point of it being uncomfortable wit it, but not quite... i guess thats why i enjoy being with her so much, but back to the subject... today is a turning point for my family, one of those slaps to the face thats liek "yeah... this shit is really happening"
shits taken a turn for the worst, and im doin the best i've been all year... i owe it to one person too... well technically two, myself, and her... not to sound like an emo-obsessive boyfriend, but she's honestly helped me through alot of shit, not like i couldnt get through it myself, but i surely wouldnt be as ok as i am now
and
i had a bawls energy drink slurpee from 711 (dunno if you know of bawls, but its a really good energy drink that used to be illegal cuz of its caffene leves) and in slushee form... its amazing
but this is how i want it to be now, because i cant change whats happening, so im looking forward to today, for the first time in years...
im gna be spending it with kirra and her family... i dunno what it is about her family, they actually accepted me for the most part which is weird, i was invited to their family get-together and actually expected to go... it almost seems wrong to me, with the way i am, and the way i see myself, and the morals i have... im not used to what me and kirra have. not at all. dont get me wrong i absolutely love it. but im not used to it, almost to the point of it being uncomfortable wit it, but not quite... i guess thats why i enjoy being with her so much, but back to the subject... today is a turning point for my family, one of those slaps to the face thats liek "yeah... this shit is really happening"
shits taken a turn for the worst, and im doin the best i've been all year... i owe it to one person too... well technically two, myself, and her... not to sound like an emo-obsessive boyfriend, but she's honestly helped me through alot of shit, not like i couldnt get through it myself, but i surely wouldnt be as ok as i am now
and
i had a bawls energy drink slurpee from 711 (dunno if you know of bawls, but its a really good energy drink that used to be illegal cuz of its caffene leves) and in slushee form... its amazing