a little chunk from my heart (:
i was reading this book, called Searching for God Knows What (by Don Miller, also author of Blue Like Jazz. READ IT!) and he was writing about Adam and Eve and how Adam had to have waited a hundred years for Eve (due to the fact that he had to name ALL of the animals first, and it also says in the bible that they didn't have the kids until they were in their hundreds, so.... deductive reasoning says... yes.), and how the ENTIRE time he was lonely, and how much he must have appreciated, adored, and intensly loved Eve. He later went on to write:
"I think it was smart of God because today, now that there are women all around and a guy can go on the Internet and see them naked anytime he wants, the whole species has been devalued. If I were a girl today in America, I would be a feminist for sure. I read recently where one out of every four women, by the time they reach thirty, are sexually harassed, molested, or raped. And then I thought about how beautiful it was that God made Adam work for so long because there was no way, after a hundred years of being alone, looking for somebody whom you could connect with in your soul, that you would take advantage of a woman once you met one. She would be the most precious creation in all the world, and you would probably wake up every morning and look at her and wonder at her beauty, or the gentle, silent way she sleeps. It stands to reason if Byron, Keats, and Shelley made beauty from reflecting on their muses, having grown up around women all their lives, that even the sonnets could not capture the sensation Adam must have felt when he opened his eyes to find Eve."
(from Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller)
reading this makes me realize i'm a silly little creature. a silly little creature with an intense relational desire.
and i look at what Adam and Eve had in the Garden and i think, y'know, that's what i want.... someone who feels like THAT about me. someone who recognizes my value. not because of what i can give them, but because i am a woman, and i can connect with that someone on a soul level. because i have intellect, and wit, and passion, and emotion, and a heart. i want someone who values ALL that i am. and, i want to feel that about THAT someone... to see their beauty, and love, and to offer what i can to them, to love them the way God loves them.
and it's funny how God brings me back in focus. Painting a picture like that, of lonely Adam naming the animals, longing for a relationship... for a companion. He, again, showed me how all the things i "had" are not in the least bit what my heart desires, what the depths of my soul long for.
so... yes, right now, i kinda feel like adam. insanely lonely. but more and more i am recognizing its purpose. i mean, He's constantly growing me. and man... it hurts. But one day, one day soon, i'm going to feel like Eve(:, and when i'm through it, and i see His strength in me, and when i finally get to the place God needs me to be so He could give me the desires of my heart....man, two words: worth it. (:
"I think it was smart of God because today, now that there are women all around and a guy can go on the Internet and see them naked anytime he wants, the whole species has been devalued. If I were a girl today in America, I would be a feminist for sure. I read recently where one out of every four women, by the time they reach thirty, are sexually harassed, molested, or raped. And then I thought about how beautiful it was that God made Adam work for so long because there was no way, after a hundred years of being alone, looking for somebody whom you could connect with in your soul, that you would take advantage of a woman once you met one. She would be the most precious creation in all the world, and you would probably wake up every morning and look at her and wonder at her beauty, or the gentle, silent way she sleeps. It stands to reason if Byron, Keats, and Shelley made beauty from reflecting on their muses, having grown up around women all their lives, that even the sonnets could not capture the sensation Adam must have felt when he opened his eyes to find Eve."
(from Searching for God Knows What by Donald Miller)
reading this makes me realize i'm a silly little creature. a silly little creature with an intense relational desire.
and i look at what Adam and Eve had in the Garden and i think, y'know, that's what i want.... someone who feels like THAT about me. someone who recognizes my value. not because of what i can give them, but because i am a woman, and i can connect with that someone on a soul level. because i have intellect, and wit, and passion, and emotion, and a heart. i want someone who values ALL that i am. and, i want to feel that about THAT someone... to see their beauty, and love, and to offer what i can to them, to love them the way God loves them.
and it's funny how God brings me back in focus. Painting a picture like that, of lonely Adam naming the animals, longing for a relationship... for a companion. He, again, showed me how all the things i "had" are not in the least bit what my heart desires, what the depths of my soul long for.
so... yes, right now, i kinda feel like adam. insanely lonely. but more and more i am recognizing its purpose. i mean, He's constantly growing me. and man... it hurts. But one day, one day soon, i'm going to feel like Eve(:, and when i'm through it, and i see His strength in me, and when i finally get to the place God needs me to be so He could give me the desires of my heart....man, two words: worth it. (: