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I wrote something yesterday in private...and I realized I should have it in my public journal...it sums up a common issue for me I suppose. But after this passes in a copy and paste mechanism, I will begin a chunk for today. Great, huh?
Let me continue: I have few close friends, few friends that I feel like I can call up and get together with. And this is starting to bother me.
I mean, I know plenty on a casual basis. But now that high school has passed and most have gone off to pursue different things...and now that I have something resembling a break from school, work, and everything else...I realize there aren't many I feel like I can call up and get together with. Most people I know, I know casually...and I am finding this is no longer adequate.
Well, maybe I've known this for sometime. But I've kept myself busy...so I guess I wasn't concerned. I am a happy person, but I just want a few more I can call close to me...that I can trust.
And of course, there's men. So, I've been on some dates here and there...but...I don't know what to say of them at this point. I guess I have just been disappointed by the outcome of all of them. But still, going on a few dates got me thinking more about future issues...of not only finding a close friend, but a close SOMEONE.
It all comes down to having quantity vs. quality...to being familiar with several vs. knowing a few...
And that's that. ~sigh~
Right now, I feel sort of...empty...of fuel, that is. I just didn't sleep well last night...my thoughts kept running over so many things and people in life...and now I feel numb. I'm sure the feeling will pass.
So I have officially made two chunks of somewhat random moments of thought, life. Maybe when I have more focus and desire, I'll be more coherent or consistent...or otherwise, normal.
Let me continue: I have few close friends, few friends that I feel like I can call up and get together with. And this is starting to bother me.
I mean, I know plenty on a casual basis. But now that high school has passed and most have gone off to pursue different things...and now that I have something resembling a break from school, work, and everything else...I realize there aren't many I feel like I can call up and get together with. Most people I know, I know casually...and I am finding this is no longer adequate.
Well, maybe I've known this for sometime. But I've kept myself busy...so I guess I wasn't concerned. I am a happy person, but I just want a few more I can call close to me...that I can trust.
And of course, there's men. So, I've been on some dates here and there...but...I don't know what to say of them at this point. I guess I have just been disappointed by the outcome of all of them. But still, going on a few dates got me thinking more about future issues...of not only finding a close friend, but a close SOMEONE.
It all comes down to having quantity vs. quality...to being familiar with several vs. knowing a few...
And that's that. ~sigh~
Right now, I feel sort of...empty...of fuel, that is. I just didn't sleep well last night...my thoughts kept running over so many things and people in life...and now I feel numb. I'm sure the feeling will pass.
So I have officially made two chunks of somewhat random moments of thought, life. Maybe when I have more focus and desire, I'll be more coherent or consistent...or otherwise, normal.