Grace
I have a headache; and I am thinking a lot, which seems to actually make it hurt more.
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I search so, so hard for meaning. I would do anything for it. When something seems to be meaningless to me, it really does not sit well with me. I sift through it wearily and half-heartedly, believing there are more significant things I could be doing. All the while, I do not recognise the importance of what I am rushing through. I misunderstand the significance of insignificance. I fail to hear the sound of silence. I am disillusioned by the veneer of emptiness that is the space occupying the area around something I deem to be full.
What do I know?
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There is melancholy in the wind and sorrow in the grass ~ Charles Kuralt
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I find it interesting that the word melancholy is defined either by using the words 'sadness', 'pensive', or 'thoughtful'. Does this mean that to be in a state of thoughtfulness, or pensiveness, denotes sadness? Does the definer see no separation from thought and sadness? This is a depressing nature if that is truly so simply interpreted by someone when you are thoughtful. I can see that it is true that many do interpret it as such, though. I used to sit down in high school and just think during lunch times. I would stare into space and just think about things, not necessarily things that would sadden me. In fact, often I would think about things that made me happy; and yet almost every time without fail someone would ask me, "What's wrong?" Informing me that I 'looked sad'. My answer would nearly always be, "Nothing. I am just thinking."
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My new favourite word is grace. I truly think it is the most beautiful word. Defined as 'effortless beauty'. What a brilliant ideal. It is what I now realise attracts me more than anything else in existence. So many people, including people I personally know, are beautiful. Beautiful in varying ways; and their beauty is natural. It's just the way they are. Effortless and eternal. I think that is an incredibly hopeful thing. Do you know anybody who does not have at least one thing about them that is graceful? I don't, because I know that I would probably not befriend someone who was ungraceful in everything. I generally look for the good in all people and I have tremendous faith in that. Therefore, if I cannot find at least one thing about them that is of good nature and beauty, I know they must be a rather ugly person, in that they are not good. This is by my standards, though;
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What do I know?
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I search so, so hard for meaning. I would do anything for it. When something seems to be meaningless to me, it really does not sit well with me. I sift through it wearily and half-heartedly, believing there are more significant things I could be doing. All the while, I do not recognise the importance of what I am rushing through. I misunderstand the significance of insignificance. I fail to hear the sound of silence. I am disillusioned by the veneer of emptiness that is the space occupying the area around something I deem to be full.
What do I know?
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There is melancholy in the wind and sorrow in the grass ~ Charles Kuralt
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I find it interesting that the word melancholy is defined either by using the words 'sadness', 'pensive', or 'thoughtful'. Does this mean that to be in a state of thoughtfulness, or pensiveness, denotes sadness? Does the definer see no separation from thought and sadness? This is a depressing nature if that is truly so simply interpreted by someone when you are thoughtful. I can see that it is true that many do interpret it as such, though. I used to sit down in high school and just think during lunch times. I would stare into space and just think about things, not necessarily things that would sadden me. In fact, often I would think about things that made me happy; and yet almost every time without fail someone would ask me, "What's wrong?" Informing me that I 'looked sad'. My answer would nearly always be, "Nothing. I am just thinking."
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My new favourite word is grace. I truly think it is the most beautiful word. Defined as 'effortless beauty'. What a brilliant ideal. It is what I now realise attracts me more than anything else in existence. So many people, including people I personally know, are beautiful. Beautiful in varying ways; and their beauty is natural. It's just the way they are. Effortless and eternal. I think that is an incredibly hopeful thing. Do you know anybody who does not have at least one thing about them that is graceful? I don't, because I know that I would probably not befriend someone who was ungraceful in everything. I generally look for the good in all people and I have tremendous faith in that. Therefore, if I cannot find at least one thing about them that is of good nature and beauty, I know they must be a rather ugly person, in that they are not good. This is by my standards, though;
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What do I know?