Fanfic: Pitch Black [Chapter 14]
Title: Pitch Black
Author: audcline
Genres:Romance, Drama ,Angst, Slice of Life
Pairings: YamaChii[main], Tadaiki,Daichi,YamaJima [side pairing]
Rating:rated G
Summary: Yuri lost his reasons to open new doors after an incident during his last year in the University. After that incident he changed. Ever since then, he lived his life in shadows and distance his self from people. Until an unexpected encounter made him take a step out of his shell once again, but what if stepping out of his shell means facing those people who made him feel worthless? What if stepping out of his shell means acceptance of the things that he already closes his eyes for? and what if stepping out of his shell means falling inlove to a person he didn't expect was once became a part of his past life?
Check for the previous chapters and other stories here: Fanfic Index
It's almost 12 midnight when Takaki was dismissed from work. The rain fades and left that earthy smell from the ground. Walking a little faster to reach his little brother's apartment he couldn't help but to worry. Not hearing a word from his brother for the whole day made him feel restless. He's about to press the door bell button when suddenly he heard a loud noise inside. He knock on the door, tense, and found out that it's unlocked. Takaki doesn't feel right, he immediately enter the apartment and head towards Yuri's bedroom. He almost had a heart attack when he saw his younger brother on the floor. "Yuri!" Takaki's eyes widen and he immediately touch Yuri who's having hypothermia. "Oh God! You're so cold Yuri. I'll bring you to the hospital now. Just hang in there." Takaki carry him on his back and immediately took the elevator that is exactly on their floor.
After a while, they're inside the hospital and Yuri was taken to the emergency room. The nurses and doctor quickly check on his condition and didn't let Takaki interfere. Walking back and forth with his arm crossed feeling overall uptight, he tried to suppress the cloudy image that is starting to build up inside his head. The tickling of the clock seem so loud, the silence on the hospital hallway is restless, and any tiny little noise make Takaki's heartbeat fast.
"Are you the relative of the patient?" the doctor asked.
"Y-yes, I'm his elder brother. How's his condition now? Is he alright?"
"He's far from danger now. If you brought him a little too late maybe he'll be gone by now. He was icy cold when he arrived. His heartbeat was already weak due to too much exposure to cold. His body temperature dropped drastically which was very crucial if haven't taken into immediate action. But no need to worry now, he will get into his normal temperature once he received the exact medication and nutrition. Seems like he haven't eaten or drink anything for the past hours. Let him sleep for a while and once he wake up try to let him eat something so that he'll gain his strength fast." the doctor said.
"I understand. Thank you doctor for your help."
~**~
Passionate people never let their thoughts about the thing they love get tangled. They're focus and they have goals they wanted to achieve. But in reality, not all people are passionate, not all people are brave enough to pursue the thing they love. And nothing is more self-destructing than self-doubt. Losing that self-trust within you at the midst of almost getting there.
After two days, Yuri is now back to his apartment. Takaki went out for a while to buy some food at the nearest family restaurant. While looking around the place Yuri heard his phone ringing somewhere. He immediately look after it since he didn't brought it with him during those two days at the hospital. It was under his pillow with 20% battery life. Looking at the screen he saw 5 messages unread and 3 missed calls. He opened the messages and read them one by one, three messages came from his parents and 2 messages came from Arioka. The missed calls came from either his dad and mom. All of a sudden it hit him, the things and confrontation that happened that day. He squeezed his phone, tightly, and his expression suddenly transcend into a painful one.
"What did i do? " he muttered.
All of a sudden, Yuri received a text message from Arioka. Asking his condition now. He was worried since Takaki has been sharing about what happened. Yuri replied, "Thank you for your concern Arioka-san. But I'm in perfect condition now. And also I'm sorry for worrying you." he texted. After few seconds he received an instant answer, "That's good to hear. I'll visit you there at your apartment soon. Please don't over work, okay? Rest well." Yuri smiled when he read that sweet message from Arioka. Then his phone ring again, he received another message with a certain link attached to it with the name and number of the sender. "-Ryosuke."
Yuri click the link that leads him to a certain website. As he scroll down he saw images. Images of Ryosuke together with Yuto. Below each images are comment boxes.
"Ryosuke Yamada is a well-known model and editor, he is smart and an absolute ikemen but i think he's kind of a crazy dude."
"I think Ryosuke Yamada used Yuto Nakajima for popularity."
"He's an empty can. Very inconsiderate and conceited."
"Such a trashy human being."
Our little squirrel pause from scrolling the images and it drew a worrisome expression on his face. He stop looking at the link and immediately keep his phone on his pocket. Takaki arrived with groceries and take out food. He immediately noticed that worrisome look on Yuri's face.
"Yuri..."
"H-hai?"
"Can you please tell me what happened - that day?"
~**~
Ryosuke is sitting comfortably at the sofa with some snacks and drinks scattered at the table. He switched the television on since he is waiting for his favourite show that will start around that time. He then started scrolling images from a certain link using his tablet. " Seriously, that man didn't just snatched my phone for nothing. He even invaded my privacy. Ugh. What should I do?" Ryosuke murmured then he open his social media account and updated his status, "I...lost...my...smart...phone."
Then he heard the door open. He saw Arioka who just came in from work. He look quite exhausted since the printing and publication of the book he's editing is due next week. "Okaeri Ari-chan!" he greeted him with a big smile tugged on his face as if he's perfectly fine.
"Tadai ma."
"You look very tired Ari-chan. You should sit here beside me and let's eat all this snacks that i bought." he giggled.
"Maybe later, I need to take a shower first." Arioka said who's heading at his room when suddenly he remember something. "Ah- Ryosuke...did you send a text message to me?" he asked.
"Huh? A text? " Ryosuke wondered. "I lost my phone this morning. A guy in black snatched it and I was dragged and got these scratches."
"Huh? Are you okay?"
"Don't worry i'm fine." Ryosuke smiled.
"Anyway, Here's the message-" Arioka let him see the message that he's talking about.
"What's this? I thought it's just a normal pickpocket of smartphones. Tsk. That's why he run as if his life's on the line! Seriously, What does this guy need to me?" Ryosuke couldn't believe what just happened.
"Should I report it to the police? I think I should!" Arioka is worried for his friend.
"Don't bother it anymore Ari-chan. I already posted in my social media that I lost my phone. I think Yuto will eventually read it once he's online. I know that he will understand it, it's not like we haven't encountered such thing before. And there's nothing important in it so let it be." Ryosuke said.
"Are you sure?"
"Ha-i... WAIT!" Ryosuke jumped off from his sit with a frantic look. "This was a group message, wasn't it?" his eyes is wide open. "UGH! SERIOUSLY, WHY IS IT HAPPENING TO ME? I CAN'T...ARGH! That guy from the neighbourhood would misunderstood that i uploaded those photos on purpose, thinking that I'm clingy and still have lingering feeling!" Ryosuke is pointing at that window infront of them located at the other building. He buried his face on the pillows trying to calm his self then all of a sudden Arioka tap him at the back.
"Ryosuke, tell me the truth. What happened that day?" Arioka is being completely blunt since he noticed that Ryosuke is acting strange for the past few days already. The ichigo lover snapped and slowly quit being child-like. He look at Arioka in the eyes and the atmosphere switched to a serious confrontation.
~**~
Why do people dream big? Why do they spend a lot of time and effort to achieve things that is almost impossible to have? What's with these dreams that people doesn't mind being rejected? Or being ignored? Or even being played of? Despite all these heartache why do people still believe that a door will open for them if they work hard.
Ryosuke is a dream chaser eversince he was a kid. He loves reading books and writing as if his life is inline to it. He is passionate in this field that is why even he took business administration during college due to his parents choice he took the track where his heart is telling him where to be. And he didn't have any tiny regrets. At age 20 his very first edited book was published and was given golden award. It became bestseller and was released even in other parts of the world. He also became a fashion model when he was 21 and until now he's doing dual job. He achieved more at an early age which other people envied about him. All of these are achieved through his hard work and passion. Many young hopeful writers and editors admire him for being smart, talented and good-looking. But along with his early achievements, he have dealt with haters and bashers for so many times.
"Ryosuke... Can I ask you something?"
"Hmm? Sure, what is it?"
"Did your feelings for Yuri came back?" Arioka asked bluntly.
Ryosuke for a moment remain in silent. He pinned a stare at the window just infront of their apartment room from the other building. He heap a sigh as he slowly felt that small tug of smile on his face.
"The moment i saw him after so many years i felt that sudden tug in my heart. I didn't recognized him at first due to his appearance which was way different from what he look like when we were in College. The way he dress up, the way he act infront of people...it was drastic changes which put me quite into confusion." - "But i knew it was him after all, yet at that moment, i know that i love Yuto and my feelings for Yuri wasn't the like that i once had for him."
"Ryosuke?-"
"But...looking at my self now i can't assist what feeling i have for him anymore. Everything happened out of curiosity. At first, i was like "Why does he act that way?" "Why isn't he coming out of the world?" "He's so different from me." such curiosities." Ryosuke is being consumed by his confusion which causes him to act a little bit weary about his feelings. "After being curious i started worrying about him, while worrying about him i started thinking about him, while thinking of him I began missing him."
"If you can't assist your feelings for him now, there's only one way to confirm that." Arioka said.
"Huh?"
"Talk to him and reconfirm it."
"WHAT?! That's impossible Ari-chan. You know that were not in good terms now. It's impossible for us to talk. If i bug him now and barge in at his apartment he might sue me for trespassing this time. Or if i talk to him i might get noisy and irritating and he might report me to the police for public disturbance. You know me Ari-chan i don't shut when things aren't under control." Ryosuke said.
"Then what's your plan?"
"I don't know yet." he sighed. "Right now... things are as foggy as things inside my head." he whispered followed by gloomy expression.
~**~
Exactly 8pm, Ryosuke went out to grab some food for Arioka who's pulling an all nighter because of all the deadlines he's facing at work. It was some kind of a breezy night time which put him into a decision to go at the nearest playground to unwind. He's sitting at the swing while looking at the night sky. It feels soothing to be outside in that late summer season.
"I'm such a nuisance to people." Ryosuke blurted out of the blue followed by a silly smirk. Although deep down he knew that he's being stubborn for being straight forward when it comes to what he think is right. Sometimes it just hit him once the people around him started cutting him off out of their life. He felt a sudden sting at his right hand due to the scratches he got.
"I-itai." he twitch in pain.
He decided to go back to the apartment but before getting to the last block before their building he accidentally meet the most unexpected person to see that time , Yuri. The ichigo lover's right hand move on his own, it was raised half way that suddenly show his gauges. Ryosuke quickly put it down when he realized how awkward that moment is. He immediately put his attention to the opposite direction.. Yet at the corner of his eyes he somewhat managed to see Yuri's expression became vulnerable after seeing his injury. But it has been quickly concealed after few seconds. Both of them remain in complete silence as if they were a complete stranger. The atmosphere is still unbearable during that brief moment. The little one break that awkward encounter and passed Ryosuke with unuttered words.
"I know I'm used being ignored. I can manage bashers and haters. I can handle time like this." Ryosuke's thoughts suddenly came rushing inside his head.
"But maybe not this one, -not with this person."
TO BE CONTINUED...
A/N: HISASHIBURI MINNA-SAN! My last update of this fic was June and look what month now. I don't know what happened but I believe you deserve an explanation from me. First of all, I would like to thank you for sticking with this story even after i almost abandon it. But I don't plan of abandoning PB. It just happened which every fangirls and fanboys is going through or will go through in life is to choose and decide which path you will take. The word reality for most of us seems like another dimension especially to me who have entered the fandom world since i was in high school and now i'm a job seeker who's life is still unplanned. I graduated college this year and it was one of the most fulfilling thing i did for my family and for myself. But life doesn't end there, it's just the beginning. And it's one of the hardest part of living.
I quite lost my interest in writing for months because I am not getting enough motivation. Even I myself, is not gaining motivations in life. So I've decided to go in unannounced hiatus. I stopped reading fanfictions, and this year i know that i became quite inactive to my JUMP fandom.I kind of feel mentally,emotionally and socially lost this year. :'(
I will keep on writing not as active as before but i will keep on writing. Thank you everyone for being there. Thank you for reading this chapter and i'm sorry for making you wait this long. Comments and critics are well-appreciated. Until to the next chapter. Jya ne~ ciao ^_^
Author: audcline
Genres:Romance, Drama ,Angst, Slice of Life
Pairings: YamaChii[main], Tadaiki,Daichi,YamaJima [side pairing]
Rating:rated G
Summary: Yuri lost his reasons to open new doors after an incident during his last year in the University. After that incident he changed. Ever since then, he lived his life in shadows and distance his self from people. Until an unexpected encounter made him take a step out of his shell once again, but what if stepping out of his shell means facing those people who made him feel worthless? What if stepping out of his shell means acceptance of the things that he already closes his eyes for? and what if stepping out of his shell means falling inlove to a person he didn't expect was once became a part of his past life?
Check for the previous chapters and other stories here: Fanfic Index
It's almost 12 midnight when Takaki was dismissed from work. The rain fades and left that earthy smell from the ground. Walking a little faster to reach his little brother's apartment he couldn't help but to worry. Not hearing a word from his brother for the whole day made him feel restless. He's about to press the door bell button when suddenly he heard a loud noise inside. He knock on the door, tense, and found out that it's unlocked. Takaki doesn't feel right, he immediately enter the apartment and head towards Yuri's bedroom. He almost had a heart attack when he saw his younger brother on the floor. "Yuri!" Takaki's eyes widen and he immediately touch Yuri who's having hypothermia. "Oh God! You're so cold Yuri. I'll bring you to the hospital now. Just hang in there." Takaki carry him on his back and immediately took the elevator that is exactly on their floor.
After a while, they're inside the hospital and Yuri was taken to the emergency room. The nurses and doctor quickly check on his condition and didn't let Takaki interfere. Walking back and forth with his arm crossed feeling overall uptight, he tried to suppress the cloudy image that is starting to build up inside his head. The tickling of the clock seem so loud, the silence on the hospital hallway is restless, and any tiny little noise make Takaki's heartbeat fast.
"Are you the relative of the patient?" the doctor asked.
"Y-yes, I'm his elder brother. How's his condition now? Is he alright?"
"He's far from danger now. If you brought him a little too late maybe he'll be gone by now. He was icy cold when he arrived. His heartbeat was already weak due to too much exposure to cold. His body temperature dropped drastically which was very crucial if haven't taken into immediate action. But no need to worry now, he will get into his normal temperature once he received the exact medication and nutrition. Seems like he haven't eaten or drink anything for the past hours. Let him sleep for a while and once he wake up try to let him eat something so that he'll gain his strength fast." the doctor said.
"I understand. Thank you doctor for your help."
~**~
Passionate people never let their thoughts about the thing they love get tangled. They're focus and they have goals they wanted to achieve. But in reality, not all people are passionate, not all people are brave enough to pursue the thing they love. And nothing is more self-destructing than self-doubt. Losing that self-trust within you at the midst of almost getting there.
After two days, Yuri is now back to his apartment. Takaki went out for a while to buy some food at the nearest family restaurant. While looking around the place Yuri heard his phone ringing somewhere. He immediately look after it since he didn't brought it with him during those two days at the hospital. It was under his pillow with 20% battery life. Looking at the screen he saw 5 messages unread and 3 missed calls. He opened the messages and read them one by one, three messages came from his parents and 2 messages came from Arioka. The missed calls came from either his dad and mom. All of a sudden it hit him, the things and confrontation that happened that day. He squeezed his phone, tightly, and his expression suddenly transcend into a painful one.
"What did i do? " he muttered.
All of a sudden, Yuri received a text message from Arioka. Asking his condition now. He was worried since Takaki has been sharing about what happened. Yuri replied, "Thank you for your concern Arioka-san. But I'm in perfect condition now. And also I'm sorry for worrying you." he texted. After few seconds he received an instant answer, "That's good to hear. I'll visit you there at your apartment soon. Please don't over work, okay? Rest well." Yuri smiled when he read that sweet message from Arioka. Then his phone ring again, he received another message with a certain link attached to it with the name and number of the sender. "-Ryosuke."
Yuri click the link that leads him to a certain website. As he scroll down he saw images. Images of Ryosuke together with Yuto. Below each images are comment boxes.
"Ryosuke Yamada is a well-known model and editor, he is smart and an absolute ikemen but i think he's kind of a crazy dude."
"I think Ryosuke Yamada used Yuto Nakajima for popularity."
"He's an empty can. Very inconsiderate and conceited."
"Such a trashy human being."
Our little squirrel pause from scrolling the images and it drew a worrisome expression on his face. He stop looking at the link and immediately keep his phone on his pocket. Takaki arrived with groceries and take out food. He immediately noticed that worrisome look on Yuri's face.
"Yuri..."
"H-hai?"
"Can you please tell me what happened - that day?"
~**~
Ryosuke is sitting comfortably at the sofa with some snacks and drinks scattered at the table. He switched the television on since he is waiting for his favourite show that will start around that time. He then started scrolling images from a certain link using his tablet. " Seriously, that man didn't just snatched my phone for nothing. He even invaded my privacy. Ugh. What should I do?" Ryosuke murmured then he open his social media account and updated his status, "I...lost...my...smart...phone."
Then he heard the door open. He saw Arioka who just came in from work. He look quite exhausted since the printing and publication of the book he's editing is due next week. "Okaeri Ari-chan!" he greeted him with a big smile tugged on his face as if he's perfectly fine.
"Tadai ma."
"You look very tired Ari-chan. You should sit here beside me and let's eat all this snacks that i bought." he giggled.
"Maybe later, I need to take a shower first." Arioka said who's heading at his room when suddenly he remember something. "Ah- Ryosuke...did you send a text message to me?" he asked.
"Huh? A text? " Ryosuke wondered. "I lost my phone this morning. A guy in black snatched it and I was dragged and got these scratches."
"Huh? Are you okay?"
"Don't worry i'm fine." Ryosuke smiled.
"Anyway, Here's the message-" Arioka let him see the message that he's talking about.
"What's this? I thought it's just a normal pickpocket of smartphones. Tsk. That's why he run as if his life's on the line! Seriously, What does this guy need to me?" Ryosuke couldn't believe what just happened.
"Should I report it to the police? I think I should!" Arioka is worried for his friend.
"Don't bother it anymore Ari-chan. I already posted in my social media that I lost my phone. I think Yuto will eventually read it once he's online. I know that he will understand it, it's not like we haven't encountered such thing before. And there's nothing important in it so let it be." Ryosuke said.
"Are you sure?"
"Ha-i... WAIT!" Ryosuke jumped off from his sit with a frantic look. "This was a group message, wasn't it?" his eyes is wide open. "UGH! SERIOUSLY, WHY IS IT HAPPENING TO ME? I CAN'T...ARGH! That guy from the neighbourhood would misunderstood that i uploaded those photos on purpose, thinking that I'm clingy and still have lingering feeling!" Ryosuke is pointing at that window infront of them located at the other building. He buried his face on the pillows trying to calm his self then all of a sudden Arioka tap him at the back.
"Ryosuke, tell me the truth. What happened that day?" Arioka is being completely blunt since he noticed that Ryosuke is acting strange for the past few days already. The ichigo lover snapped and slowly quit being child-like. He look at Arioka in the eyes and the atmosphere switched to a serious confrontation.
~**~
Why do people dream big? Why do they spend a lot of time and effort to achieve things that is almost impossible to have? What's with these dreams that people doesn't mind being rejected? Or being ignored? Or even being played of? Despite all these heartache why do people still believe that a door will open for them if they work hard.
Ryosuke is a dream chaser eversince he was a kid. He loves reading books and writing as if his life is inline to it. He is passionate in this field that is why even he took business administration during college due to his parents choice he took the track where his heart is telling him where to be. And he didn't have any tiny regrets. At age 20 his very first edited book was published and was given golden award. It became bestseller and was released even in other parts of the world. He also became a fashion model when he was 21 and until now he's doing dual job. He achieved more at an early age which other people envied about him. All of these are achieved through his hard work and passion. Many young hopeful writers and editors admire him for being smart, talented and good-looking. But along with his early achievements, he have dealt with haters and bashers for so many times.
"Ryosuke... Can I ask you something?"
"Hmm? Sure, what is it?"
"Did your feelings for Yuri came back?" Arioka asked bluntly.
Ryosuke for a moment remain in silent. He pinned a stare at the window just infront of their apartment room from the other building. He heap a sigh as he slowly felt that small tug of smile on his face.
"The moment i saw him after so many years i felt that sudden tug in my heart. I didn't recognized him at first due to his appearance which was way different from what he look like when we were in College. The way he dress up, the way he act infront of people...it was drastic changes which put me quite into confusion." - "But i knew it was him after all, yet at that moment, i know that i love Yuto and my feelings for Yuri wasn't the like that i once had for him."
"Ryosuke?-"
"But...looking at my self now i can't assist what feeling i have for him anymore. Everything happened out of curiosity. At first, i was like "Why does he act that way?" "Why isn't he coming out of the world?" "He's so different from me." such curiosities." Ryosuke is being consumed by his confusion which causes him to act a little bit weary about his feelings. "After being curious i started worrying about him, while worrying about him i started thinking about him, while thinking of him I began missing him."
"If you can't assist your feelings for him now, there's only one way to confirm that." Arioka said.
"Huh?"
"Talk to him and reconfirm it."
"WHAT?! That's impossible Ari-chan. You know that were not in good terms now. It's impossible for us to talk. If i bug him now and barge in at his apartment he might sue me for trespassing this time. Or if i talk to him i might get noisy and irritating and he might report me to the police for public disturbance. You know me Ari-chan i don't shut when things aren't under control." Ryosuke said.
"Then what's your plan?"
"I don't know yet." he sighed. "Right now... things are as foggy as things inside my head." he whispered followed by gloomy expression.
~**~
Exactly 8pm, Ryosuke went out to grab some food for Arioka who's pulling an all nighter because of all the deadlines he's facing at work. It was some kind of a breezy night time which put him into a decision to go at the nearest playground to unwind. He's sitting at the swing while looking at the night sky. It feels soothing to be outside in that late summer season.
"I'm such a nuisance to people." Ryosuke blurted out of the blue followed by a silly smirk. Although deep down he knew that he's being stubborn for being straight forward when it comes to what he think is right. Sometimes it just hit him once the people around him started cutting him off out of their life. He felt a sudden sting at his right hand due to the scratches he got.
"I-itai." he twitch in pain.
He decided to go back to the apartment but before getting to the last block before their building he accidentally meet the most unexpected person to see that time , Yuri. The ichigo lover's right hand move on his own, it was raised half way that suddenly show his gauges. Ryosuke quickly put it down when he realized how awkward that moment is. He immediately put his attention to the opposite direction.. Yet at the corner of his eyes he somewhat managed to see Yuri's expression became vulnerable after seeing his injury. But it has been quickly concealed after few seconds. Both of them remain in complete silence as if they were a complete stranger. The atmosphere is still unbearable during that brief moment. The little one break that awkward encounter and passed Ryosuke with unuttered words.
"I know I'm used being ignored. I can manage bashers and haters. I can handle time like this." Ryosuke's thoughts suddenly came rushing inside his head.
"But maybe not this one, -not with this person."
TO BE CONTINUED...
A/N: HISASHIBURI MINNA-SAN! My last update of this fic was June and look what month now. I don't know what happened but I believe you deserve an explanation from me. First of all, I would like to thank you for sticking with this story even after i almost abandon it. But I don't plan of abandoning PB. It just happened which every fangirls and fanboys is going through or will go through in life is to choose and decide which path you will take. The word reality for most of us seems like another dimension especially to me who have entered the fandom world since i was in high school and now i'm a job seeker who's life is still unplanned. I graduated college this year and it was one of the most fulfilling thing i did for my family and for myself. But life doesn't end there, it's just the beginning. And it's one of the hardest part of living.
I quite lost my interest in writing for months because I am not getting enough motivation. Even I myself, is not gaining motivations in life. So I've decided to go in unannounced hiatus. I stopped reading fanfictions, and this year i know that i became quite inactive to my JUMP fandom.I kind of feel mentally,emotionally and socially lost this year. :'(
I will keep on writing not as active as before but i will keep on writing. Thank you everyone for being there. Thank you for reading this chapter and i'm sorry for making you wait this long. Comments and critics are well-appreciated. Until to the next chapter. Jya ne~ ciao ^_^