Fanfic: Pitch Black [Chapter 5]
Title: Pitch BlackAuthor: audcline
Genres: Romance, Drama , Slice of Life, A Little Humor?
Pairings: YamaChii[main], Tadaiki,Daichi,YamaJima [side pairing]
Summary: Yuri lost his reasons to open new doors after an incident during his last year in the University. After that incident he changed. Ever since then, he lived his life in shadows and distance his self from people. Until an unexpected encounter made him take a step out of his shell once again, but what if stepping out of his shell means facing those people who made him feel worthless? What if stepping out of his shell means acceptance of the things that he already closes his eyes for? and what if stepping out of his shell means falling inlove to a person he didn't expect was once became a part of his past life?
There are two things in the world that hurts. First is death, second is rejection. Death hurts for the people who lives, while rejection hurts because they make you feel as if your existence doesn't matter while you're still living.
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Takaki look around the photoshoot venue trying to find where is the lovey dovey couple, Ryosuke and Yuto. He didn't saw anyone of them during the photoshoot that's why he asked the producers if what happened to the two. The producer gave an unclear answer to Takaki which he didn't get that's why he just let it goes by and he take his rest for a while. He sat at his chair and fish his phone inside his bag. He look at the screen of his phone and saw that he has almost 10 missed calls from his mother. And then a sudden call flashes at his phone which Takaki hesitantly answered.
On the other hand, Yuri switch on his tv and started watching his favorite show entitled, the top destinations to visit before you die. He's always been a fan of the mentioned show. Since Yuri could not travel he thought that by just watching those he feel like being toured to those wonderful places. Barcelona, Spain is one of the destinations and that's the country where his parents live.
"Mom and dad is in Barcelona. I've been their five times in my entire life but never had the chance to go back. I wonder if Takaki-nii will go there this time, as far as i remember he didn't returned there for the past 3 years." Yuri took a deep sigh of discomfort. "If only i'm not an introvert." he whispered. Then all of a sudden the thought of sneaking to the other building pop out inside his head. He quickly position his self on the side and slowly slide the curtain. But upon sliding completely his curtain, an expression of disappointment showed up. The windows are close, the curtains are close. The whole place feels unusual. That is not the place that is usually very loud, that is not the place full of jolliness.
"What happened?"
"It's already been a week since that incident happened. Still i am puzzled. Still i am anxious knowing that i should not stick my nose on anybody else' issues. So it really does exist?... this kind of dramas? Honestly, I only get to watch this thing happened on the television and it's actually really sad... when you get to see it happened in reality." that was what's been encoded in his mind ever since he saw Ryosuke in that situation. That troublemaker stopped teasing him and he even quit sneaking from the window. Whenever Yuri tried to look, the windows and curtains are left close and they were left untouched for the next days as well. It is very unusual since Yuri has been used to the noise and the teasing of this messed up guy.
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Ryosuke press down the enter button and he's done. The articles that was due that week is already finished and ready for printing. He step out from his chair and grab a can of cold coffee on the fridge, he stand behind the curtains and a small lit of the outside made him reminisce the past incident. He remain in silent for the succeeding minutes and reflected. After taking the last sip, he closes his eyes and took a deep breathe. As he open his eyes he saw a glimpse of the next building , where Yuri lives.
"Yosh!" he whispered.
He quickly throw the can on the bin and grab his coat and his cars' key. He went out of his apartment and that's already around 2:30 in the afternoon. A sudden ring on the door distracted Yuri, who is now in the middle of writing. Wearing his loose cardigan and a jogging pants with his hair all mess up he did not bother to fix his self and just open the door. The door was half way open but all of a sudden another hand widely opens the door.
"Hisashiburi Baa-chan!" and a wide smile of sunrays flashes directly on Yuri's face. It was Ryosuke who seems very alive and jolly like his usual self is back.
"E-eh?! W-what are you doing here?" Yuri was in a big surprised that he got stuttered with every words he said.
"I'm visiting you isn't it obvious? By the way let's go...we can still make it before the sun sets." Ryosuke said and grab Yuri's hand without explaining anything.
"H-huh? W-where are you going to take me?" Yuri asked but didn't heard any word.
Ryosuke open his doors' car and let Yuri hop in. He take the drivers' seat and started the engine.
"w-wait...h-huh... w-what's happening?" the little one feels like he's in trouble by that time. Ryosuke grab the seatbelt from Yuri's right side using his left hand and stretch a little closer to lengthen the belt which made the little one pause from panicking. He could smell Ryosuke's perfume from the sleeves of his clothes and it's undeniably good. The elder one grab the belt and lock it on the side.
"Seatbelt for safety." Ryosuke said and smile again, he checked everything and started to drive. While driving silently, a crumbling sound was heard. It was Yuri's empty stomach which the elder one grin all of a sudden.
"Didn't you eat anything for lunch?" Ryosuke asked.
" That's not your problem anymore." Yuri responded angrily.
"Don't be mad. Here, it's all yours." the elder one open a safety drawer-like inside his car and it was full of different energy bars, "Just bear with it a little more, the next restaurant is 30 minutes away from here yet." he added.
"You dragged me here without second thoughts. I left my phone and i don't have money. You're you inconsiderate and very reckless. Bring me back home!" Yuri insisted while trying to control his temper.
Ryosuke did not say any words. He park his car in a near convenience store and step out of it.
"Stay there for a while. I'll get you some food." he said and went straight to the convenience store.
Silence comes after. Yuri step out of the car and feel the whole place. The place is like a small park with few unknown people. Majority are foreigners who are in groups. The little one slowly walks away from the car to see what the place has. It was a windy day and there are kids who fly kites everywhere. It was like the first time he went out of his comfort zone after along time. Everything that he see seems new to him. All of a sudden the amount of people in the place is increasing. Everywhere he turn there are people who's talking and laughing and just making sounds which made Yuri feel dizzy, he could hear all the noises breaking his ears and his sight starting to swirl around. His vertigo is attacking him and he can't even step a foot due to so much pain. He's almost fainting when suddenly a guy rush towards to catch him in his arms. And after that everything dim out.
An hour after, Yuri found his self inside the car with blanket covering him. He saw the foods beside him which Ryosuke bought for him. Waiting outside the car, Ryosuke turned around and saw that baa-chan is already awake. The elder one entered the car with pretty much relief but a slap on the face welcome him which leave him out of words to say.
"It was hard for me to go out but you dragged me in this kind of situation. I hope you did not do this." Yuri said as tears flows down from his eyes. "Now i can't think of anything but to feel bad about myself... And to feel bad because you need to deal with me and all this messed. " he continue to cry.
" Now i understand." Ryosuke assured.
"Hmmm?"
"All this time, you always think that way. You pity yourself and think that everything that is happening is your fault. Self-pity huh? I don't think you need that... Just be yourself Yuri. Believe me, there are more things in life that is worthy than self-pity. " Ryosuke grins.
"You don't understand." Yuri said but now in a more modest way. He looked away and dried his tears away. Ryosuke give him his handkerchief but he did not get it.
"Yosha! Let's go home." Ryosuke said it himself which made Yuri glance at him and feel a sudden guilt. But the elder one can read what's written all over his face. "Daijyoubo... It's my decision after all. Ikou ne!" he said just to lessen the heavy feeling this little one feels.
While driving, Ryosuke notice that Yuri was enjoying the sight of the sea that can be seen not far enough from the road. He instantly take a U-turn which made baa-chan look at him with a big question.
"Let's drop off somewhere before going home."
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Exactly 5:30 in the afternoon, the sun is already setting. Yuri and Ryosuke step out from the car with their bare-feet and started walking towards the sea shore.
"Sugoi!" Yuri was so amazed by the vast field of clear water and the horizon that divides the sky from the sea. He step on the cold water and played with the sand. Ryosuke is now witnessing a side of this guy that maybe only few people know he grab his phone and take a photo of him for a self-keep. After some time, they both take a sit on the white powdery sand as they take their last glimpse of the sunrays for that day.
"Sayounara Taiyou-san. Matta Ashita!" Yuri blurted out.
"Matta Ashita!" Ryosuke followed and smile again.
What follows was a total silence, exempt from the waves of the ocean that sounds very soothing and the whish whoosh sound of the wind as it dances with the sand.
"May i borrow your phone?" Yuri asked.
"S-sure. Here." and give his phone to him.
Yuri take a shot of the sunset several times and the last photo he took is a photo with a little portion of Ryosuke on the side. He secretly look at him and when Ryosuke look at him too, he return his phone without deleting any of the photos.
"It's getting colder, maybe it's better if we go now." Yuri stand up and about to turn back when suddenly...
"After 2 long years, my feelings has been dumped."
Yuri freezes from the spot where he is standing. He look at Ryosuke who suddenly lost that coolness after saying those words. Ryosuke feel tormented by the reality that, during that 2 years he spent so much time to forget his past and build new memories. He spent so much effort to convinced Yuto that he loves him for real. He spent so much time to prove him that he really cares. And the thought that Yuto understands that... but reality has spoken the opposite... It hurts him just by thinking all of those spent time...wasted.
"When you're loved one dumped you...
when your loved one pushes you away...
Does your existence still make sense?
Does it matter?"
Ryosuke lock his arms to his knees and let his face drown from solidarity for a moment. In that one week he reflected and realized many things. There are reasons behind all this pain but he told his self that he's going to look for the answers. No matter how tough it may seem, he won't lock his self in the shadow where darkness range. He's not gonna lose with the fear in his heart. He's going to make things possible not only for him but to other people as well. He still loves Yuto but to move on and let go is the only solution. That no matter how painful it will be he's going to accept the fact that rejection is one of the most crucial part of life.
"Ryosuke..."
A soft angelic voice call his name. He raise his head up and look at Yuri's eyes.
"Yuri Chinen... That's my name."
The elder one suddenly felt a sense of security upon knowing the little one's name. He stand up and smile again as if nothing had just broke his heart.
"Let's go home." Yuri said.
"Unn..." he nodded and they walk together in that blanket of sand.
...
...
...
"Found you."
To be Continued....
A/N: The last part is a cliffhanger indeed! More YamaChii moments to follow, this is just the start. Thank you for reading and for motivating me to write again. Sorry for any errors. I can't find the words to say i thought i was already forgotten. Arigatou minna-san!
Comments are motivating. Critics are appreciated.