Fanfic: Pitch Black [Chapter 2]
Title: Pitch Black
Author: audcline
Genres: Romance, Drama , Slice of Life, A Little Humor?
Pairings: YamaChii[main], Tadaiki,Daichi,YamaJima [side pairing]
Rating: rated G
Summary: Yuri lost his reasons to open new doors after an incident during his last year in the University. After that incident he changed. Ever since then, he lived his life in shadows and distance his self from people. Until an unexpected encounter made him take a step out of his shell once again, but what if stepping out of his shell means facing those people who made him feel worthless? What if stepping out of his shell means acceptance of the things that he already closes his eyes for? and what if stepping out of his shell means falling inlove to a person he didn't expect was once became a part of his past life?
"Electric Bill -checked...
Water Bill-checked...
Groceries---"
...he rush at the kitchen to check if he still have enough food in the refrigerator and at the cabinet. But he saw nothing... he pout and take a deep sigh of discouragement. He sulk at the corner while looking at the piece of paper that he is holding.
"I don't wanna go out."
I wasn't afraid of the darkness...I am not afraid. All my life, I grew up with only darkness in my life. Not because nobody loves me that's not the case, because if were going to measure how much love i received it is more than what i expected. Everyone around me including my family, friends and the people who eventually became a part of my life they showed me nothing but just pure LOVE - or is it just what i thought it was.
But, it is not what i am trying to point out. I am living in a world where i found complete darkness because of the fear...A kind of fear that i never had the chance to change even a bit - Agoraphobia. It ruined many opportunities and gave me many things to regret. Feels like God didn't gave me enough bravery and strength to overcome all the mess up in my life. The high expectations i set for myself they're so brittle and unrealistic that they started to collapse. Just like my dreams that were not pursued...I can't turn back time anymore. I am forever be trapped here in the cold corner of darkness.
I am Yuri Chinen, i'm 24. I graduated college while majoring Literature. Now, I am a writer of novels. Novels that has not been published. Due to my fear of people I was not able to explore the outside world after i graduate college. My mum and dad send me allowance monthly. While my brother Takaki Yuya, is working on a prestigious boys club in town. He is also a part time model of a fashion magazine. He's actually charismatic-the opposite of me. He sometimes visit me here at my own apartment just to sleep and slack off when he's off from work. He sometimes accompany me do my grocery shopping but this time...this time...
"Did i pig out too much for the past few days?..." our little Yuri whispered while looking at his reflection in the mirror. "Am i becoming a glutton?..." he was very pessimistic.
Loose paired- pajamas, an old fashion yellow cardigan and a cute and fluffy pair of sleepers. He is the most unfashionable person in the generation. Outdated with the fashion trends and what's popular in the market. Yuri Chinen was indeed a shut in person. Still confused if he's going alone outside or wait for his brother who's working until 5pm... He glance at the wall clock on his room and end up sulking at the couch. It was only 11:30 in the morning. He still have a long way.
"Ah!...I'm super hungry but i don't have food left. I need to do the grocery shopping on my own but...- " then he hop in behind his window and slide his curtain a little and take peak to an apartment right infront of his apartment. While looking around he lock his sight to the room in the same floor as his apartment room. Since the door at the next apartment was a sliding and transparent door, only the curtain hides what's inside the room. It was quite a American Style Apartment unlike his crib it was just an old English type apartment.
"I think he's not yet home." the lad quickly change his clothes into a casual yet old fashion clothes again and grab his list and purse. Before he step out of his apartment he again reassure by looking again at the window that there's no crowd around the place. He clears his throat and take a deep breathe as he open his door and get out.
"Dealing with people is my weakness. As much as possible i don't want to face them. Especially this new guy next door who tortures me emotionally for the past few weeks because of a tank top. I was called stalker and a pervert at the same time which i received from a person who stays at the next building and unfortunately seems like he has deep connection to the person i admire,"
~**~
"Obaa-san, kindly give me a kilo of this." while pointing at the fresh strawberries that were displayed infront of the store.
"Hai." the old lady respond and glance at Yuri. " It's you chibi-chan...hisashiburi." she greeted with a smile. "How's everything going on? Are you alright?"
Yuri bow his head as a sign of respect, "H-hai...i'm ok. Thank you for the concern." he smiled.
After packing up the strawberries Yuri paid for it and then leave as soon as possible. He is now on his way home when suddenly he pass by into the nearest bench park. Since there's only few people around he decided to sit first at the bench and spend a little time feeling the cold breeze damping to his bare face. Winter is about to end. The buds from the trees are starting to grow little by little and soon there will be wonderful and healthy trees on that park again.
"If only the world is as peaceful as this..." he slowly open his eyes and a blur reflection of a mans' back captures his sight. He cleared his eyes and that man turn half way and softly look at Yuri who's looking at him as well. Yuri loss his breathe while there eyes meet for the first time. It was the guy he admire, it was the guy who look like an angel. A curve line suddenly draw on his face which strikes Yuri's heart and leave him out of breathe for the 2nd time.
"H-how can someone like him captures your breathe by just a stare? It is so magical..." he whispered until this guy who stared at him continue to walk and leave Yuri without a word. "Unrequited love... You're so near yet you're still too far. Even though how much you love that person it won't still be the same...if you can't even let your feelings reach him it won't be reciprocated in kind."
Yuri find the silence and calmness of the park pleasurable until his phone rang and broke him sharply from his thought. It was a call from Takaki - his brother.
"Takaki...hang up the phone you're next!." one of the staff at the photoshoot shouted at him.
"Later...it's Yuri..." he said and smiled cutely to the staff.
"Ok, 1 minute!"
"Eh? Nii-chan...you're at work you shouldn't have call." Yuri was a bit worried.
"No...it's ok. I just want to know if you have eaten your lunch? Have you?..." he asked curiously.
"Ah...h-hai..." Yuri lied.
"Souka...that's good then. Yuri i might not be able to visit you now since i'll be very busy at the club after my photoshoot. Is it ok with you?" Takaki asked Yuri for an answer but deep down he knew that Yuri will be fine he just want a confirmation.
"Unn...daijoubo. Don't forget to eat your meal. Sore jya, ganbatte ne!" Yuri cheered him.
"Ok. Take care Yuri." and Takaki hang up.
"Is it your brother?" a tall yet very good looking guy approach Takaki.
"Yes it is. I told him that i won't be able to visit him today."
"Such a nice brother you are Takaki." a not so tall guy but born to be gifted with the looks teased him.
"Of course!" Takaki affirmed and smile confidently as he put his shoulders across his co-models's neck as they head to the set.
Yuri set foot to his apartment and he felt like he achieved something big that day. He smiled with a relief and started placing the foods at the refrigerator and at the cabinet. He switch on the television and watch his favorite documentary about the different countries and tourist destination all around the globe. By watching those kind of stuff, felt like he's already touring the world. He started eating his late lunch and again he look at take a peak at his window but he didn't saw the person he's expecting to be home at that time.
"Maybe he's still at work...or maybe he went out with his friends..." he sighed disappointedly.
~**~
After the photoshoot Takaki bid see you again to all his co-workers at the fashion modelling team as well with the staffs.
"Yuto, let's go eat somewhere."
"Huh? Ryosuke you still have work right?"
"Don't worry about it. I beg a favor to Ari-chan to do my work for today so that i could spend a little time with you." Ryosuke said with a full contentment written all over his face.
"You're always giving extra work to Arioka. You shouldn't take advantage to people especially just because he's your bestfriend." Yuto complained as if he's not happy about it.
"You doesn't like it?" Ryosuke pout cutely which Yuto couldn't resist.
"Ok fine. Let's go... I supposed it's your treat?" the tall guy affirmed with a smile.
Ryosuke grab his hand and said, "When did i let you pay for everything that I prepared and decided for?"
Yuto gave a smirk and laugh a little, "Ok fine...you win!"
"Seeing him smile is enough for me to feel happy. He's my smile patcher...Yuto is my everything." -Ryosuke
At the publishing company where Arioka is working he's drown to many extra work because of Ryosuke's absence. Supposedly his shift is over but since he accepted the favor from his bestfriend he extended time. Some of his co-editors are about to go somewhere.
"Arioka, aren't you going home yet? Our shifts' done."
"Extended time since my very bestfriend went to a date." he smiled cutely.
"Were going to the Host Club nearby..."
"That again?...you're enjoying yourself too much there huh." he gave a smirk.
"All the hosts are so cool and they're like devils from heaven. Especially Takaki-kun." one of the girls explained metaphorically as she flails hard together with her 2 friends who happened to be in the same company.
"You're exaggerating." Arioka didn't mind.
"...will bring you there next time. Ok bye!"
"Ok have fun!" Arioka said and continue his work without complaints.
"People are busy. The world is busy. Everybody is busy. When you're busy you forget to think - a part of your time stops to give extra time for the current thing you're doing. When you're busy you forget to feel since you prefer to set aside a certain feeling to give way to your current desire. And here's that man who think of those unthinkable things that other people doesn't mine at all. Such a trouble." - Yuri's Diary 2
~**~
Night came and Yuri was done eating his dinner. Takaki called him already and that ends his day...but no...not yet... He need to see him first before going to bed. Freezing wind suddenly visited the night and seems like the night will be long this time. Yuri saw the guy he's waiting for wearing his pajamas, it made him smile since he's really cute with it.
"Oyasumi..." he whispered and his gaze suddenly move on the side and that's the time he turned into a stone. He saw someone looking at him from the same apartment room. His jaw-dropped and his eyes were left wide open as he hold his breath as if someone's pointing him a kinfe from the back. All at once he snap out from that shocking situation and quickly embrace the floor of his room and closed the curtain as fast as he could.
"D-dare?..." he panicked. Then he remembered that cocky guy he met few weeks ago. It was him and he is a hundred and one percent sure.
Yuri cleared his throat , "I'm dead." he said.
To be continued...
A/N: Second Chapter is up! Do you think i'm getting more and more boring with my stories? i think so too. *sigh* I want to make a story everyone would love but i know i can't.. *sulks at the corner* I'm becoming so sentimental here. I don't know why maybe i just need some cheer from everybody! ^___________^ My apologies for any errors.
Feel free to read.
Comments are loved.
Critics are appreciated.
Author: audcline
Genres: Romance, Drama , Slice of Life, A Little Humor?
Pairings: YamaChii[main], Tadaiki,Daichi,YamaJima [side pairing]
Rating: rated G
Summary: Yuri lost his reasons to open new doors after an incident during his last year in the University. After that incident he changed. Ever since then, he lived his life in shadows and distance his self from people. Until an unexpected encounter made him take a step out of his shell once again, but what if stepping out of his shell means facing those people who made him feel worthless? What if stepping out of his shell means acceptance of the things that he already closes his eyes for? and what if stepping out of his shell means falling inlove to a person he didn't expect was once became a part of his past life?
"Electric Bill -checked...
Water Bill-checked...
Groceries---"
...he rush at the kitchen to check if he still have enough food in the refrigerator and at the cabinet. But he saw nothing... he pout and take a deep sigh of discouragement. He sulk at the corner while looking at the piece of paper that he is holding.
"I don't wanna go out."
I wasn't afraid of the darkness...I am not afraid. All my life, I grew up with only darkness in my life. Not because nobody loves me that's not the case, because if were going to measure how much love i received it is more than what i expected. Everyone around me including my family, friends and the people who eventually became a part of my life they showed me nothing but just pure LOVE - or is it just what i thought it was.
But, it is not what i am trying to point out. I am living in a world where i found complete darkness because of the fear...A kind of fear that i never had the chance to change even a bit - Agoraphobia. It ruined many opportunities and gave me many things to regret. Feels like God didn't gave me enough bravery and strength to overcome all the mess up in my life. The high expectations i set for myself they're so brittle and unrealistic that they started to collapse. Just like my dreams that were not pursued...I can't turn back time anymore. I am forever be trapped here in the cold corner of darkness.
I am Yuri Chinen, i'm 24. I graduated college while majoring Literature. Now, I am a writer of novels. Novels that has not been published. Due to my fear of people I was not able to explore the outside world after i graduate college. My mum and dad send me allowance monthly. While my brother Takaki Yuya, is working on a prestigious boys club in town. He is also a part time model of a fashion magazine. He's actually charismatic-the opposite of me. He sometimes visit me here at my own apartment just to sleep and slack off when he's off from work. He sometimes accompany me do my grocery shopping but this time...this time...
"Did i pig out too much for the past few days?..." our little Yuri whispered while looking at his reflection in the mirror. "Am i becoming a glutton?..." he was very pessimistic.
Loose paired- pajamas, an old fashion yellow cardigan and a cute and fluffy pair of sleepers. He is the most unfashionable person in the generation. Outdated with the fashion trends and what's popular in the market. Yuri Chinen was indeed a shut in person. Still confused if he's going alone outside or wait for his brother who's working until 5pm... He glance at the wall clock on his room and end up sulking at the couch. It was only 11:30 in the morning. He still have a long way.
"Ah!...I'm super hungry but i don't have food left. I need to do the grocery shopping on my own but...- " then he hop in behind his window and slide his curtain a little and take peak to an apartment right infront of his apartment. While looking around he lock his sight to the room in the same floor as his apartment room. Since the door at the next apartment was a sliding and transparent door, only the curtain hides what's inside the room. It was quite a American Style Apartment unlike his crib it was just an old English type apartment.
"I think he's not yet home." the lad quickly change his clothes into a casual yet old fashion clothes again and grab his list and purse. Before he step out of his apartment he again reassure by looking again at the window that there's no crowd around the place. He clears his throat and take a deep breathe as he open his door and get out.
"Dealing with people is my weakness. As much as possible i don't want to face them. Especially this new guy next door who tortures me emotionally for the past few weeks because of a tank top. I was called stalker and a pervert at the same time which i received from a person who stays at the next building and unfortunately seems like he has deep connection to the person i admire,"
~**~
"Obaa-san, kindly give me a kilo of this." while pointing at the fresh strawberries that were displayed infront of the store.
"Hai." the old lady respond and glance at Yuri. " It's you chibi-chan...hisashiburi." she greeted with a smile. "How's everything going on? Are you alright?"
Yuri bow his head as a sign of respect, "H-hai...i'm ok. Thank you for the concern." he smiled.
After packing up the strawberries Yuri paid for it and then leave as soon as possible. He is now on his way home when suddenly he pass by into the nearest bench park. Since there's only few people around he decided to sit first at the bench and spend a little time feeling the cold breeze damping to his bare face. Winter is about to end. The buds from the trees are starting to grow little by little and soon there will be wonderful and healthy trees on that park again.
"If only the world is as peaceful as this..." he slowly open his eyes and a blur reflection of a mans' back captures his sight. He cleared his eyes and that man turn half way and softly look at Yuri who's looking at him as well. Yuri loss his breathe while there eyes meet for the first time. It was the guy he admire, it was the guy who look like an angel. A curve line suddenly draw on his face which strikes Yuri's heart and leave him out of breathe for the 2nd time.
"H-how can someone like him captures your breathe by just a stare? It is so magical..." he whispered until this guy who stared at him continue to walk and leave Yuri without a word. "Unrequited love... You're so near yet you're still too far. Even though how much you love that person it won't still be the same...if you can't even let your feelings reach him it won't be reciprocated in kind."
Yuri find the silence and calmness of the park pleasurable until his phone rang and broke him sharply from his thought. It was a call from Takaki - his brother.
"Takaki...hang up the phone you're next!." one of the staff at the photoshoot shouted at him.
"Later...it's Yuri..." he said and smiled cutely to the staff.
"Ok, 1 minute!"
"Eh? Nii-chan...you're at work you shouldn't have call." Yuri was a bit worried.
"No...it's ok. I just want to know if you have eaten your lunch? Have you?..." he asked curiously.
"Ah...h-hai..." Yuri lied.
"Souka...that's good then. Yuri i might not be able to visit you now since i'll be very busy at the club after my photoshoot. Is it ok with you?" Takaki asked Yuri for an answer but deep down he knew that Yuri will be fine he just want a confirmation.
"Unn...daijoubo. Don't forget to eat your meal. Sore jya, ganbatte ne!" Yuri cheered him.
"Ok. Take care Yuri." and Takaki hang up.
"Is it your brother?" a tall yet very good looking guy approach Takaki.
"Yes it is. I told him that i won't be able to visit him today."
"Such a nice brother you are Takaki." a not so tall guy but born to be gifted with the looks teased him.
"Of course!" Takaki affirmed and smile confidently as he put his shoulders across his co-models's neck as they head to the set.
Yuri set foot to his apartment and he felt like he achieved something big that day. He smiled with a relief and started placing the foods at the refrigerator and at the cabinet. He switch on the television and watch his favorite documentary about the different countries and tourist destination all around the globe. By watching those kind of stuff, felt like he's already touring the world. He started eating his late lunch and again he look at take a peak at his window but he didn't saw the person he's expecting to be home at that time.
"Maybe he's still at work...or maybe he went out with his friends..." he sighed disappointedly.
~**~
After the photoshoot Takaki bid see you again to all his co-workers at the fashion modelling team as well with the staffs.
"Yuto, let's go eat somewhere."
"Huh? Ryosuke you still have work right?"
"Don't worry about it. I beg a favor to Ari-chan to do my work for today so that i could spend a little time with you." Ryosuke said with a full contentment written all over his face.
"You're always giving extra work to Arioka. You shouldn't take advantage to people especially just because he's your bestfriend." Yuto complained as if he's not happy about it.
"You doesn't like it?" Ryosuke pout cutely which Yuto couldn't resist.
"Ok fine. Let's go... I supposed it's your treat?" the tall guy affirmed with a smile.
Ryosuke grab his hand and said, "When did i let you pay for everything that I prepared and decided for?"
Yuto gave a smirk and laugh a little, "Ok fine...you win!"
"Seeing him smile is enough for me to feel happy. He's my smile patcher...Yuto is my everything." -Ryosuke
At the publishing company where Arioka is working he's drown to many extra work because of Ryosuke's absence. Supposedly his shift is over but since he accepted the favor from his bestfriend he extended time. Some of his co-editors are about to go somewhere.
"Arioka, aren't you going home yet? Our shifts' done."
"Extended time since my very bestfriend went to a date." he smiled cutely.
"Were going to the Host Club nearby..."
"That again?...you're enjoying yourself too much there huh." he gave a smirk.
"All the hosts are so cool and they're like devils from heaven. Especially Takaki-kun." one of the girls explained metaphorically as she flails hard together with her 2 friends who happened to be in the same company.
"You're exaggerating." Arioka didn't mind.
"...will bring you there next time. Ok bye!"
"Ok have fun!" Arioka said and continue his work without complaints.
"People are busy. The world is busy. Everybody is busy. When you're busy you forget to think - a part of your time stops to give extra time for the current thing you're doing. When you're busy you forget to feel since you prefer to set aside a certain feeling to give way to your current desire. And here's that man who think of those unthinkable things that other people doesn't mine at all. Such a trouble." - Yuri's Diary 2
~**~
Night came and Yuri was done eating his dinner. Takaki called him already and that ends his day...but no...not yet... He need to see him first before going to bed. Freezing wind suddenly visited the night and seems like the night will be long this time. Yuri saw the guy he's waiting for wearing his pajamas, it made him smile since he's really cute with it.
"Oyasumi..." he whispered and his gaze suddenly move on the side and that's the time he turned into a stone. He saw someone looking at him from the same apartment room. His jaw-dropped and his eyes were left wide open as he hold his breath as if someone's pointing him a kinfe from the back. All at once he snap out from that shocking situation and quickly embrace the floor of his room and closed the curtain as fast as he could.
"D-dare?..." he panicked. Then he remembered that cocky guy he met few weeks ago. It was him and he is a hundred and one percent sure.
Yuri cleared his throat , "I'm dead." he said.
To be continued...
A/N: Second Chapter is up! Do you think i'm getting more and more boring with my stories? i think so too. *sigh* I want to make a story everyone would love but i know i can't.. *sulks at the corner* I'm becoming so sentimental here. I don't know why maybe i just need some cheer from everybody! ^___________^ My apologies for any errors.
Feel free to read.
Comments are loved.
Critics are appreciated.