Sep 07, 2006 21:36
Hmm...
if you choose to read this.. then do so. don't criticize what i write.. it's basically for my well-being.
Thank You..
Audrizzzleeeee
So I have decided to write something in this good ole livejournal of mine do to the fact that I have some interesting thoughts running through my head.
& I feel the need to get them out in some sort of way.
Hmm..
So let's see.. Josh leaves from London on Monday. First of, Sept. 11th, kind of a shitty date to fly out, but I wish him the best on his trip.
Yes we broke up... but I still think he's pretty freaking awesome. Hopefully somewhere down the road we'll be good friends.
Even though.... at points. I think about dating him again when he gets back. Who knows.. if when he gets back... and if I still feel that way. Maybe I'll actualy fight for something that I want. Instead of waiting for him to make a move. At least I know I can say I tried.. and if it doesn't work.. no regrets.. right?
Exactly.
At least Josh is probably one of my only ex-boyfriends (even though we dated like 2 months)that I would love to have and keep a good friendship with him. All of my past ex-boyfriends hasnt' really worked out in that manner. Umm.. let's see.. Rosso.. ehh, we didnt talk for a long ass time.(we don't really now either haha, oh well) It happens. I'll be honest for some reason took me a long to get over him. It's been .. oh 4 years now? I'm straight with that now. I felt really bad when I heard that him and Franzy broke up.. that is sad. But I understand long distance relationships.. and his was a lot further then mine. Griffin was only in East Lansing.. or Fremont. But still with my hectic work schedule and school.. it was a bitch. We made it work.. but in the end I am content that we did finally end it, because I would have been holding myself back from a lot of expierences with having to deal with the distance.. that is something that I dont really want to do again. One of the primary reasons that Josh & I broke up was because of the distance. He was going back home for a month before he left and then to London for 4 months.. now that would have sucked. So.. a little part of me is being opptimistic, but I am not going to let that little optimism hold me back from anything.
Ok.. so back to Griffin. One thing that irritates me is hearing from people, and it's more than one person that they think I am not over Griffin. There are only a few people who know the whole situation between Griffin and I.. and that would be Steve, Griffin & myself..... it's hard for someone to just completely let go of someone that you spent so much time with and cared deeply for. I know that my wifey understands what I'm saying here..
The only beef that is between me and Griffin is probably having to deal with his girlfriend(and other things as well...) ... just well because I'm pretty sure she dislikes me..oh well. A lot of people do and I'll just say what I say to everyone else.. FUCK YOU... haha no not really. But I honestly don't care. I am happy that he is finally happy, (from what I hear..) even if I dont really like his choice in girls... oh well. Not my choice. I'll deal with it.
**sidenote: homewrecker by hellogoodbye just popped up on my itunes** crazy..
anyhoot...
a big kudos goes to a Mr. Patty B.. he's probably one of the only ex's that has been a good friend. Even if he does suck for being a big nerd who plays tennis and well.... is just gay. haha j/k.. I was trying to be funny.. and I lost my train of thought.
Anyways....
I think I'm done.
My thoughts maybe scattered.... its okay. It's just how I am.
The only reason I wrote this is for one reason.. and that is to set my mind straight about
JBG...
peace out suckers.
BTW.. I SAW MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK ON MONDAY IN LANSING..... AND IT WAS FREAKING AWESOME.. I LOVED IT!!!!
JUSTIN PIERRE.... YOU COMPLETE ME! <3
13 days till the big ***21****