i need a vacation...
work..well march was a horrible month. asb was a great experience, extremely challenging at times, especially being the only staff member. things became even more complicated when we had to take david to the hospital, and while there he had a seizure. for the first time in my life, i had to step in the role of primary care-taker/decision maker. (the rational, "mom" role) and i was fine while in the hospital, when i walked outside at about midnight, i freaked out a bit (at that point he had not had a seizure yet, but we thought he did), i am very thankful for Joel, who although he was on vacation in Vegas, was able to talk to me. And for the other phone call I received that night...thank you. When I got back to Michigan, things just went downhill from there...I was basically told that I was not doing my job well enough. Even though I had basically been working for two straight months without a vacation and had a huge successful campus wide program (Battle of the Bands). So needless to say, I was not happy at work.
home...farmington hills is farmington hills. I haven't spent much time here at all, just enough to sleep, shower, get ready for work and the rest of my time is spent in ypsi. out of the last month, i have spent more hours at work/in ypsi than at home. not that i'm really complaining, i've loved the majority of the time that i've spent in ypsi. I am seriously considering trying to move closer next year (if i can afford it) because as much as i love living in the hills, the driving home at all hours sucks.
life...no idea what the hell is going on next year. i feel like i am stuck in this cycle...thinking i've got it figured out, then something happens and i'm back to square one. i want to get out of michigan, see some place new, live in an unfamiliar town, make it up as i go along, yet i don't know if i am ready for that, if i can actually do that. if i even want to do that what am i going to do for a job? do i stay with hillel? do i stick with becoming a teacher? what do i want to be when i grow up? and why is this so difficult for me to figure out? i've always had an idea, i've always had things semi-figured out and now i feel like my life is up in the air...
home...farmington hills is farmington hills. I haven't spent much time here at all, just enough to sleep, shower, get ready for work and the rest of my time is spent in ypsi. out of the last month, i have spent more hours at work/in ypsi than at home. not that i'm really complaining, i've loved the majority of the time that i've spent in ypsi. I am seriously considering trying to move closer next year (if i can afford it) because as much as i love living in the hills, the driving home at all hours sucks.
life...no idea what the hell is going on next year. i feel like i am stuck in this cycle...thinking i've got it figured out, then something happens and i'm back to square one. i want to get out of michigan, see some place new, live in an unfamiliar town, make it up as i go along, yet i don't know if i am ready for that, if i can actually do that. if i even want to do that what am i going to do for a job? do i stay with hillel? do i stick with becoming a teacher? what do i want to be when i grow up? and why is this so difficult for me to figure out? i've always had an idea, i've always had things semi-figured out and now i feel like my life is up in the air...