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Well, I knew this was going to happen sooner or later. Matt's ship is preparing them for deployment next year. So he has a ton of underways over the next few months....the first one is for 5 DAYS!!! I can't believe it. The doom is coming in the form of "WHAT THE HECK AM I GONNA DO?" I have a lot of friends, and I have family here....but he is my husband, and it seems like I never see him anymore, that we never talk anymore and now he's just leaving. I knew there were things that I'd have to get used to what with being married to the Navy, but I....I just don't know. I...I'm at a loss. There's so much that we are both going through....seperately...well, things I'm going through that Matt keeps telling me he's there for, but he isn't. I know he isn't. I feel he isn't. I've talked to him about all this, but he keeps saying that everything is going to 'alright'. I'm sick of hearing that!! Ladies, wives....help me...I'm not sure of anything right now...not even my marriage...I'm scared and sad...