my rant session.
im SO tired of people right now.
between my parents and others.
my parents hate me and i can never do anything right. i want to just scream at them to help them understand i dont care anymore. i dont care, i truly dont. im tired of trying to be perfect for them. im tired for being blamed for things, im tired of having to give them respect when i get none in return. i feel like im so alone. the only time i find peace is at work, because i know there im doing something important and people appreciate me. at home my parents could care less what happens to me and dont really care about anything thats going on in my life. my brother...is about to be the death of me, i dont understand why everything is ALWAYS my fault and yet again im still not doing anything right. hes always yelling at me just like my parents are. all he ever does is yell and cuss me out. family is suppose to love you, right? i dread going home. i hate being with my family, i hate being aorund them. i dont get along with them. i get called a bitch by my mom and brother more than i do at school. i get told fuck you daily. it makes me wonder why the hell they even wanted me or had me if they are going to treat me like im nothing. i feel like they dont even want me. i want to give up on them. i want to just run away and just see if theyd miss me, they wouldnt actually. finances would be better, and my parents would have less to worry about. because god damn, i feel like a freaking burden and theyd be better off without me. i just want to go to work and not come home, because i know right when i do go home all i hear is yelling and hatefulness. i just want to be loved by my own family. and right now i dont feel like i am, wait i havent felt loved by my family in almost 2 years...i just wish i wasnt here because obviously my family would be less stressful and happier without their terrible daughter...me.
so i choose to sit here and just listen to fall out boy, because they just give me a little hope i guess.
between my parents and others.
my parents hate me and i can never do anything right. i want to just scream at them to help them understand i dont care anymore. i dont care, i truly dont. im tired of trying to be perfect for them. im tired for being blamed for things, im tired of having to give them respect when i get none in return. i feel like im so alone. the only time i find peace is at work, because i know there im doing something important and people appreciate me. at home my parents could care less what happens to me and dont really care about anything thats going on in my life. my brother...is about to be the death of me, i dont understand why everything is ALWAYS my fault and yet again im still not doing anything right. hes always yelling at me just like my parents are. all he ever does is yell and cuss me out. family is suppose to love you, right? i dread going home. i hate being with my family, i hate being aorund them. i dont get along with them. i get called a bitch by my mom and brother more than i do at school. i get told fuck you daily. it makes me wonder why the hell they even wanted me or had me if they are going to treat me like im nothing. i feel like they dont even want me. i want to give up on them. i want to just run away and just see if theyd miss me, they wouldnt actually. finances would be better, and my parents would have less to worry about. because god damn, i feel like a freaking burden and theyd be better off without me. i just want to go to work and not come home, because i know right when i do go home all i hear is yelling and hatefulness. i just want to be loved by my own family. and right now i dont feel like i am, wait i havent felt loved by my family in almost 2 years...i just wish i wasnt here because obviously my family would be less stressful and happier without their terrible daughter...me.
so i choose to sit here and just listen to fall out boy, because they just give me a little hope i guess.