things i should discuss 2.0, first posted march 20
1: trying to give up sugar: my friend rick has to give up sugar and beer and fatty foods, and pretty much everything good in life for some health issues. it made me think about my own eating habits, and i decided to try to give up sugar. i did pretty good for the first two weeks, but this past week...not so much...
2: both my plays were accepted to the capital fringe festival: YAY! that's pretty much it. i proposed Ros and Guil are Dead, Em proposed Priscilla Dreams the Answer. Both were accepted. it's pretty damn awesome! somewhere between july 9 and 26 i will be producing and performing in two plays :)
3: spring is coming. please come spring.: i told dc it had until april to be winter, and then it had to be spring. it seems like that is the case. the magnolia's are blooming, the cherry trees are blossoming. there are daffodils and easter lilies everywhere. i planted grass seed and flower seeds. i am sprouting a cala lily right now, as well as daisies and sunflowers. plus, a bunch of wild flowers, morning glories, and marigolds. i can't wait to see what blooms!
4: i need to find a director for ros and guil: NOPE. I has a director! his name is jean-daniel chablais. he is from switzertland. i have a few reservations, but i think he can make it work. i am glad we have until april 13 to start running auditions. which is, y'know, great. because i am not ready to start everything yet, and would like to wait until after my family comes for easter to start running it all.
5: indulj dicks me around: yeah. i've given up on that. they gave me some weak excuse, and they refuse to say "we don't want you". so, i'm looking for a different job.
6: a week of suckiness and drinking: i don't even remember what made the week so sucky. probably due to the drinking. but there was sucky, and drinking. that kind of seems to be the trend. last monday i had to drop off the last of schmitty's stuff and pick my stuff up. i hated having to go back to the house i lived and loved in. i hated having to be brushed off by echo, and meet a roomie i didn't even know. i hated seeing the changes they'd made to the place. and i really really hated seeing schmitty. seeing that he'd cut his hair. having to say hello out of a sense of being decent, and having to repeat the goodbye so it sounded super bitchy. i just hated all of it. i feel like i lost months of progress in that half second of seeing him out of the corner of my eye. i spent a lot of money last week drinking whiskey and rum trying to pretend it was all ok.
7: karaoke, ben, dani, erin, brock, linda, javi and meeting matt: i talked erin into coming to karaoke, and she did, and she loved it, so she made brock come, and he loved it, because karaoke is just that awesome. linda joined up (she is our new roomate, and an instant bff). ben was intensely awkward, and i am mostly fine with that being the way it is.
8: front page with jack and tina: about two weeks ago tina and i went out with our friend jack. we started at science club, but as usually happens we moved to the front page. it was great seeing jack, because he does art too, and i like having an artist to speak with. eventually jack had to head out, leaving tina and i to ourselves, which meant we were quickly surrounded by various single men. one of them walked up and said to me "wow. you're tall. i've got a tall friend looking for a tall girl. want me to bring him over?" and i couldn't think of why not, so i said yes
9: meeting erik: turns out tall friend is a 6'4" amateur triathlete named erik. blonde hair, blue eyes, tight ass. dorky and so shy he stuttered for the first few minutes he was at the table. YEAH. i could find soemthing to do with that ;)
10: from dusk to dawn: a story of madness and passion in three acts with a triathlete, whiskey and kegs&eggs: one of the first things i said to erik was "well, you don't have to stay here and hang with me, but if you want to hang with me i will make a series of bad ideas that will lead to stories we will tell for decades." he said yes. so we drank whiskey. we danced. we kept tina from getting so silly drunk, and ran interference with matt who kinda didn't get i was working an angle (or did and didn't care...). we walked over to solly's, talking film and social concepts on the way over (with a few fervent presses against various trees), closed solly's and went to ben's chili bowl, only to get locked out at the last second. so, drunken kisses in an alley until someone noticed, hopping in a cab back to my place so i could change my clothes for kegs and eggs, get some whiskey and make use of a few extra hours ;) then standing in line at kegs and eggs at 8am, feeling super sick, but drinking more helped. almost gave up, but got in at 10am. saw the end of the hoobastank set, carolina liar's set and filter (who was a drama queen!). we were cheered on by various people in the crowd for the story of having met 12 hours ago, and being such damn rockstars. we were out of the show by 1, and i was passed out in my bed by 2, with him on his way to see his parents. i gave him my number, but never expected to hear back from him
11: things get weird with va: didn't see mike for a while, then when i was seeing him, it was comfy, but not carnal. which is too close to a relationship for me. i was surprised when he wasn't totally pissed after jesse. i had stopped asking about his interludes after that, because i figured he was seeing someone else (little things like long hair in the bathroom sink give it away). but he tells me know, and seems to be more interested in just cuddling with me than sleeping with me. i realize i need to change some things because that just won't work.
12: the troubles with driving and teaching, and trying to enjoy my life: i got stuck in traffic, was late for a very high energy student and parent, got bitched out by several people. wasted a ton of money and time, got an angry email from em, and just couldn't deal for the rest of the night.
13: wandering with chipmumk and matt (and ben?) so i went drinking with my boys. which was nice. and it was fun to put ben in his place, after he acted so childish in relation to me
14: the ex drama never ends: see previous statement about seeing schmitty. it was prefaced with a couple of other attempts to do the exchange where he wasn't there and didn't make certain anyone else would be, so it was just me going down, ringing a doorbell in the rain, then going home (or drinking. whichever)
15: monday turns into a half day, which turns into a date, which means more awesome with triathlete (read: sequoia, knowing, parking, fado, sticky rice, waking up at 5:30am). we are not certain if erik's nickname is triathlete or annapolis (where he lives). it's clear mike is boytoy, and jesse is freshman. ben doesn't merit a name yet, but lidia took to calling him childish. anyway, i didn't have work after 5:30 on monday, and erik had a half day, so he came into the city! i hadn't expected to hear from him, and instead 3 days later he was back in town. i had free tickets to see a movie, and he took me to the sequoia (a very nice restaurant) beforehand for dinner and drinks. turns out they overbooked the movie, so we went and killed some time, then headed over to fado's for pub quiz. afterwards we went to sticky rice to meet up with matt, and have half off sushi. really the plan was to get the sushi to go and live out some japanese body table fantasies, but we got lured in with cheap pbr and sake. then more sake. it was great. trouble is, he has to be to work at, like, 6:30, so he has to leave at 5:30, which is an ugly hour. i don't know how he does it.
16: planting seeds and drinking jack. yeah. that's how i spent most of march ;)
17: hoban's, front page, solly's, tina, elizabeth, mike, lalo, matt, aaron, doug and sean. green dress, 3 inch heels, kisses in the street.: this is how i spent st. patrick's day. i wore the vintage velvet dress muffin gave me and 3 inch heels. it was great. we met random girls, but after a while they pissed me off, so we went to the front page. tina left before i did, and i left mike behind with adrian and his many female friends. matt and i went to solly's to round the night out, where i had a lawyer named sean throw his breifing to the ground, grab me and slap a kiss on me, then tell me we were going out on thursday. of course i said yes.
18: biscuits for breakfast, production meeting, jean-daniel: matt crashed at my place for the night, and we went to wilsons (a good place to eat) for brunch to try to recover from the deadly headaches we had. had a production meeting with em after, where we started to figure out how we would manage the money we raised, and request it. we had another the next week, where we decided to try to incorporate, get our 501c3, and possibly earn money through theatre, is that possible? afterwards i met with jeandaniel, whom i have already discussed.
19: continuing the weird of va, this time with more truthiness: went to visit mike on a wednesday. i just couldn't be alone that night. so, i went over, we had some snacks, smoked some hookah. he asked if i was sleeping with anyone else (i had implied that it was ok if he was too tired for sex, and because it had been a few days, he got suspicious), and i told him yes, and he got very weird. didn't want to snuggle that night, and didn't give me a kiss goodbye the next morning. yes, we all saw that coming. but, still, it sorta sucked.
20: tina and i want to find a new place to live. we're just sort of tired of all the other people. especially the people who never sweep or clean, and the people who obsess over it so much they institute chore charts like we're in kindergarten...
21: i did go on the date with the lawyer, and while he is charming, and handsome, and clever and tall...it didn't seem to go anywhere. none of the "grab you in the street and take your breath away" from st. pats. perhaps it's the long game? or perhaps it's no game...
22: friday i visited polly's cafe for the first time, after meaning to for a year. and i loved it as much as i thought i would. jack and i had some happy hour, and i was tipsy by 6. made my way home because erik was coming into town for the night (yay!). on the way out of the metro i saw a dude with a bag from china. i struck up a convo, turned out he's super cool and lives a block away. YAY! he has a great girlfriend, and they came over for drinks while i got ready and waited for erik to arrive. then we all went to stetson, had many a drink, played pool, and got home at a mostly decent hour, because i have work on saturdays, as does erik.
23:sunday i had to rent a car. i got it from regan airport. my last lesson of the day was at dulles airport. then i went to bwi to pick up jeff from vegas. then we went to chinatown for food. then we both got booty calls, so i went to annapolis (because i had a car and i could!) and he went to silver spring. and i saw erik's place. annapolis is closer than i thought, but still...yeesh. it'll be easy to tell when that is dying, because it is an effort to make that schlepp.
24: returned my car late because i slept through my alarm (why did i go back to bed after driving back to dc?), so i kept it for the extra day. insert schmitty drama, that was monday.
25: tried to do karaoke with tina and elizabeth on tuesday, but we got there at 6 and it doesn't start till, like, 10. we just couldn't make it. so tuesday was an early night, with matt coming over to drink with me on the couch (his best friend had just died, so he needed company, too)
26: wednesday was karaoke! sarah and brian came, which made it awesome. made many new friends, which is also awesome. ben decided he wasn't finished trying to get with me, and i am always entertained with men pursuing me, so i'm letting him see where he can get with that. the answer is not very far til he learns to man up, but he'll have to learn that on his own. thursday was crowns with drinks and a show. erik came down, and erin, tina, and linda came out. it was a pretty nice show...very "Jesus loves me, this i know, because a bunch of black women in hats told me so"
afterwards we popped into solly's and drank ourselves silly, then back to petworth at a mostly decent hour
27: friday i went out with the neighbors, mike, mccafferty and his friend, and matt and his new roomie. it was an interesting mix, and i was very worried it wouldn't work (mostly i was worried mike would be a douche, but it's the first time i'd seen him since the weird, so...)
most of my friends were concerned with what was happening with the mike thing, i think mostly because they'd met erik (shy, genial, easy going) and they didn't know there was even a mike (loud, arrogant, aggressive), let alone he had precedence. tried to keep those situations diffused, and in the end i sorta stopped caring. i think matt was a little irked, but whatevs. adrian joined up, and i made some new friends at sollys (after we totally walked thru the rain to dc9 for no reason), and we closed the place down. then i turned into a drunken, sobbing, barfing mess. it was mike's fault. there are a few emotions in that, and many of them are of the "it's not a relationship, i gave you sara's number, you can sleep with other people too, so why can't we keep things the way they were" variety. oye. but he was kind and honest and a friend, and he got me in a cab and on my way home.
28: the next day i had work. and i was sick all day. but lidia was in town, and she wanted to go out, so by 9pm i had erik and chipmunk at my place, had eaten some pizza for dinner, and had the 3 inch heels on. we went to big hunt, then we got into the vip dance floor at citron. sweet! it was a wonderful, wonderful night :)
29: sara went out with mike. i am assuming where that went. it actually doesn't bother me. i trust her. and it makes me feel like we're on equal ground. i don't know if things are any less weird with mike, but he just messaged me and i let him know wednesday is good if he wants it. if not, i can't blame him. sara thought we were in a relationship, because it had been going on for a few months, which makes me think he probably did too. but i've been nothing but straight up about me being broken, not wanting a relationship, and keeping everything pretty superficial, so i don't know why he would. i get the feeling he may be getting closer to wanting one..i don't know. that may be where the real awkward lies. and we know that if i'm pressed, i will say go before i say stay.
wow. hella long. congrats to anyone who made it this far!
2: both my plays were accepted to the capital fringe festival: YAY! that's pretty much it. i proposed Ros and Guil are Dead, Em proposed Priscilla Dreams the Answer. Both were accepted. it's pretty damn awesome! somewhere between july 9 and 26 i will be producing and performing in two plays :)
3: spring is coming. please come spring.: i told dc it had until april to be winter, and then it had to be spring. it seems like that is the case. the magnolia's are blooming, the cherry trees are blossoming. there are daffodils and easter lilies everywhere. i planted grass seed and flower seeds. i am sprouting a cala lily right now, as well as daisies and sunflowers. plus, a bunch of wild flowers, morning glories, and marigolds. i can't wait to see what blooms!
4: i need to find a director for ros and guil: NOPE. I has a director! his name is jean-daniel chablais. he is from switzertland. i have a few reservations, but i think he can make it work. i am glad we have until april 13 to start running auditions. which is, y'know, great. because i am not ready to start everything yet, and would like to wait until after my family comes for easter to start running it all.
5: indulj dicks me around: yeah. i've given up on that. they gave me some weak excuse, and they refuse to say "we don't want you". so, i'm looking for a different job.
6: a week of suckiness and drinking: i don't even remember what made the week so sucky. probably due to the drinking. but there was sucky, and drinking. that kind of seems to be the trend. last monday i had to drop off the last of schmitty's stuff and pick my stuff up. i hated having to go back to the house i lived and loved in. i hated having to be brushed off by echo, and meet a roomie i didn't even know. i hated seeing the changes they'd made to the place. and i really really hated seeing schmitty. seeing that he'd cut his hair. having to say hello out of a sense of being decent, and having to repeat the goodbye so it sounded super bitchy. i just hated all of it. i feel like i lost months of progress in that half second of seeing him out of the corner of my eye. i spent a lot of money last week drinking whiskey and rum trying to pretend it was all ok.
7: karaoke, ben, dani, erin, brock, linda, javi and meeting matt: i talked erin into coming to karaoke, and she did, and she loved it, so she made brock come, and he loved it, because karaoke is just that awesome. linda joined up (she is our new roomate, and an instant bff). ben was intensely awkward, and i am mostly fine with that being the way it is.
8: front page with jack and tina: about two weeks ago tina and i went out with our friend jack. we started at science club, but as usually happens we moved to the front page. it was great seeing jack, because he does art too, and i like having an artist to speak with. eventually jack had to head out, leaving tina and i to ourselves, which meant we were quickly surrounded by various single men. one of them walked up and said to me "wow. you're tall. i've got a tall friend looking for a tall girl. want me to bring him over?" and i couldn't think of why not, so i said yes
9: meeting erik: turns out tall friend is a 6'4" amateur triathlete named erik. blonde hair, blue eyes, tight ass. dorky and so shy he stuttered for the first few minutes he was at the table. YEAH. i could find soemthing to do with that ;)
10: from dusk to dawn: a story of madness and passion in three acts with a triathlete, whiskey and kegs&eggs: one of the first things i said to erik was "well, you don't have to stay here and hang with me, but if you want to hang with me i will make a series of bad ideas that will lead to stories we will tell for decades." he said yes. so we drank whiskey. we danced. we kept tina from getting so silly drunk, and ran interference with matt who kinda didn't get i was working an angle (or did and didn't care...). we walked over to solly's, talking film and social concepts on the way over (with a few fervent presses against various trees), closed solly's and went to ben's chili bowl, only to get locked out at the last second. so, drunken kisses in an alley until someone noticed, hopping in a cab back to my place so i could change my clothes for kegs and eggs, get some whiskey and make use of a few extra hours ;) then standing in line at kegs and eggs at 8am, feeling super sick, but drinking more helped. almost gave up, but got in at 10am. saw the end of the hoobastank set, carolina liar's set and filter (who was a drama queen!). we were cheered on by various people in the crowd for the story of having met 12 hours ago, and being such damn rockstars. we were out of the show by 1, and i was passed out in my bed by 2, with him on his way to see his parents. i gave him my number, but never expected to hear back from him
11: things get weird with va: didn't see mike for a while, then when i was seeing him, it was comfy, but not carnal. which is too close to a relationship for me. i was surprised when he wasn't totally pissed after jesse. i had stopped asking about his interludes after that, because i figured he was seeing someone else (little things like long hair in the bathroom sink give it away). but he tells me know, and seems to be more interested in just cuddling with me than sleeping with me. i realize i need to change some things because that just won't work.
12: the troubles with driving and teaching, and trying to enjoy my life: i got stuck in traffic, was late for a very high energy student and parent, got bitched out by several people. wasted a ton of money and time, got an angry email from em, and just couldn't deal for the rest of the night.
13: wandering with chipmumk and matt (and ben?) so i went drinking with my boys. which was nice. and it was fun to put ben in his place, after he acted so childish in relation to me
14: the ex drama never ends: see previous statement about seeing schmitty. it was prefaced with a couple of other attempts to do the exchange where he wasn't there and didn't make certain anyone else would be, so it was just me going down, ringing a doorbell in the rain, then going home (or drinking. whichever)
15: monday turns into a half day, which turns into a date, which means more awesome with triathlete (read: sequoia, knowing, parking, fado, sticky rice, waking up at 5:30am). we are not certain if erik's nickname is triathlete or annapolis (where he lives). it's clear mike is boytoy, and jesse is freshman. ben doesn't merit a name yet, but lidia took to calling him childish. anyway, i didn't have work after 5:30 on monday, and erik had a half day, so he came into the city! i hadn't expected to hear from him, and instead 3 days later he was back in town. i had free tickets to see a movie, and he took me to the sequoia (a very nice restaurant) beforehand for dinner and drinks. turns out they overbooked the movie, so we went and killed some time, then headed over to fado's for pub quiz. afterwards we went to sticky rice to meet up with matt, and have half off sushi. really the plan was to get the sushi to go and live out some japanese body table fantasies, but we got lured in with cheap pbr and sake. then more sake. it was great. trouble is, he has to be to work at, like, 6:30, so he has to leave at 5:30, which is an ugly hour. i don't know how he does it.
16: planting seeds and drinking jack. yeah. that's how i spent most of march ;)
17: hoban's, front page, solly's, tina, elizabeth, mike, lalo, matt, aaron, doug and sean. green dress, 3 inch heels, kisses in the street.: this is how i spent st. patrick's day. i wore the vintage velvet dress muffin gave me and 3 inch heels. it was great. we met random girls, but after a while they pissed me off, so we went to the front page. tina left before i did, and i left mike behind with adrian and his many female friends. matt and i went to solly's to round the night out, where i had a lawyer named sean throw his breifing to the ground, grab me and slap a kiss on me, then tell me we were going out on thursday. of course i said yes.
18: biscuits for breakfast, production meeting, jean-daniel: matt crashed at my place for the night, and we went to wilsons (a good place to eat) for brunch to try to recover from the deadly headaches we had. had a production meeting with em after, where we started to figure out how we would manage the money we raised, and request it. we had another the next week, where we decided to try to incorporate, get our 501c3, and possibly earn money through theatre, is that possible? afterwards i met with jeandaniel, whom i have already discussed.
19: continuing the weird of va, this time with more truthiness: went to visit mike on a wednesday. i just couldn't be alone that night. so, i went over, we had some snacks, smoked some hookah. he asked if i was sleeping with anyone else (i had implied that it was ok if he was too tired for sex, and because it had been a few days, he got suspicious), and i told him yes, and he got very weird. didn't want to snuggle that night, and didn't give me a kiss goodbye the next morning. yes, we all saw that coming. but, still, it sorta sucked.
20: tina and i want to find a new place to live. we're just sort of tired of all the other people. especially the people who never sweep or clean, and the people who obsess over it so much they institute chore charts like we're in kindergarten...
21: i did go on the date with the lawyer, and while he is charming, and handsome, and clever and tall...it didn't seem to go anywhere. none of the "grab you in the street and take your breath away" from st. pats. perhaps it's the long game? or perhaps it's no game...
22: friday i visited polly's cafe for the first time, after meaning to for a year. and i loved it as much as i thought i would. jack and i had some happy hour, and i was tipsy by 6. made my way home because erik was coming into town for the night (yay!). on the way out of the metro i saw a dude with a bag from china. i struck up a convo, turned out he's super cool and lives a block away. YAY! he has a great girlfriend, and they came over for drinks while i got ready and waited for erik to arrive. then we all went to stetson, had many a drink, played pool, and got home at a mostly decent hour, because i have work on saturdays, as does erik.
23:sunday i had to rent a car. i got it from regan airport. my last lesson of the day was at dulles airport. then i went to bwi to pick up jeff from vegas. then we went to chinatown for food. then we both got booty calls, so i went to annapolis (because i had a car and i could!) and he went to silver spring. and i saw erik's place. annapolis is closer than i thought, but still...yeesh. it'll be easy to tell when that is dying, because it is an effort to make that schlepp.
24: returned my car late because i slept through my alarm (why did i go back to bed after driving back to dc?), so i kept it for the extra day. insert schmitty drama, that was monday.
25: tried to do karaoke with tina and elizabeth on tuesday, but we got there at 6 and it doesn't start till, like, 10. we just couldn't make it. so tuesday was an early night, with matt coming over to drink with me on the couch (his best friend had just died, so he needed company, too)
26: wednesday was karaoke! sarah and brian came, which made it awesome. made many new friends, which is also awesome. ben decided he wasn't finished trying to get with me, and i am always entertained with men pursuing me, so i'm letting him see where he can get with that. the answer is not very far til he learns to man up, but he'll have to learn that on his own. thursday was crowns with drinks and a show. erik came down, and erin, tina, and linda came out. it was a pretty nice show...very "Jesus loves me, this i know, because a bunch of black women in hats told me so"
afterwards we popped into solly's and drank ourselves silly, then back to petworth at a mostly decent hour
27: friday i went out with the neighbors, mike, mccafferty and his friend, and matt and his new roomie. it was an interesting mix, and i was very worried it wouldn't work (mostly i was worried mike would be a douche, but it's the first time i'd seen him since the weird, so...)
most of my friends were concerned with what was happening with the mike thing, i think mostly because they'd met erik (shy, genial, easy going) and they didn't know there was even a mike (loud, arrogant, aggressive), let alone he had precedence. tried to keep those situations diffused, and in the end i sorta stopped caring. i think matt was a little irked, but whatevs. adrian joined up, and i made some new friends at sollys (after we totally walked thru the rain to dc9 for no reason), and we closed the place down. then i turned into a drunken, sobbing, barfing mess. it was mike's fault. there are a few emotions in that, and many of them are of the "it's not a relationship, i gave you sara's number, you can sleep with other people too, so why can't we keep things the way they were" variety. oye. but he was kind and honest and a friend, and he got me in a cab and on my way home.
28: the next day i had work. and i was sick all day. but lidia was in town, and she wanted to go out, so by 9pm i had erik and chipmunk at my place, had eaten some pizza for dinner, and had the 3 inch heels on. we went to big hunt, then we got into the vip dance floor at citron. sweet! it was a wonderful, wonderful night :)
29: sara went out with mike. i am assuming where that went. it actually doesn't bother me. i trust her. and it makes me feel like we're on equal ground. i don't know if things are any less weird with mike, but he just messaged me and i let him know wednesday is good if he wants it. if not, i can't blame him. sara thought we were in a relationship, because it had been going on for a few months, which makes me think he probably did too. but i've been nothing but straight up about me being broken, not wanting a relationship, and keeping everything pretty superficial, so i don't know why he would. i get the feeling he may be getting closer to wanting one..i don't know. that may be where the real awkward lies. and we know that if i'm pressed, i will say go before i say stay.
wow. hella long. congrats to anyone who made it this far!