depression is a funny thing
you know what i don't like? those depression hurts commercials. i don't know why, but every time i watch them i'm like "oh. shut up."
anyway, the past week was not fun, but i remembered that just forcing myself to stay busy and stay active will usually pull me out. i don't know how well my friends and schmitty liked hanging out with me, but at least it seems to have worked.
i am learning there is a difference between brutal honesty and unfair unloading. knowing which is saying something that is genuinely bothering me, and something that is said to hurt or weigh down. i'm a pretty manipulative person, which i like to pretend i'm not, and it's hard to differentiate these days. i think i've done pretty well, though.
i've been thinking of going to law school. during the high 2-3 weeks ago (which should have been a sign last week was coming?) i decided i was going to go to law school in the next two years. i also decided to throw out half the things i own, and cleaned my entire apt, and almost broke up with schmitty, but that's something else entirely. i am kinda intrigued with the law school thought. it would be nice to have the degree. it'd be more useful than an mfa (not that i'm giving up on theatre), and when i get into politics it'll be nice to actually know about the laws i'm making. i think it'll make daddy happy to hear, also. we all know that's been his goal all along.
in other news, my halloween party ROCKED. not a ton of people came (only 20 or 30), but it was nice. people used the gauntlet, even tho it was 40 degrees out. everyone loved the decorations and cupcakes. it was grand.
also, jenjen came to visit last week, and that was nice. i haven't seen her since her wedding, so it was nice to have that opportunity.
also, i bought a sewing machine and am slowly learning how to use it. i sewed a skirt for my pirate costume for halloween, and schmitty adn i have been figuring out how to tailor his american cut shirts so they'll be more fitted european cuts. it's been so cute watching him pin and fit and sew these past few days. domestic men are sexy :-D
anyway, the past week was not fun, but i remembered that just forcing myself to stay busy and stay active will usually pull me out. i don't know how well my friends and schmitty liked hanging out with me, but at least it seems to have worked.
i am learning there is a difference between brutal honesty and unfair unloading. knowing which is saying something that is genuinely bothering me, and something that is said to hurt or weigh down. i'm a pretty manipulative person, which i like to pretend i'm not, and it's hard to differentiate these days. i think i've done pretty well, though.
i've been thinking of going to law school. during the high 2-3 weeks ago (which should have been a sign last week was coming?) i decided i was going to go to law school in the next two years. i also decided to throw out half the things i own, and cleaned my entire apt, and almost broke up with schmitty, but that's something else entirely. i am kinda intrigued with the law school thought. it would be nice to have the degree. it'd be more useful than an mfa (not that i'm giving up on theatre), and when i get into politics it'll be nice to actually know about the laws i'm making. i think it'll make daddy happy to hear, also. we all know that's been his goal all along.
in other news, my halloween party ROCKED. not a ton of people came (only 20 or 30), but it was nice. people used the gauntlet, even tho it was 40 degrees out. everyone loved the decorations and cupcakes. it was grand.
also, jenjen came to visit last week, and that was nice. i haven't seen her since her wedding, so it was nice to have that opportunity.
also, i bought a sewing machine and am slowly learning how to use it. i sewed a skirt for my pirate costume for halloween, and schmitty adn i have been figuring out how to tailor his american cut shirts so they'll be more fitted european cuts. it's been so cute watching him pin and fit and sew these past few days. domestic men are sexy :-D