relief

[aubrilee]

I wish I could make a longer entry, but phone entries are a pain, and I am going to get back to celebrating Schmittys birthday with him

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[ddmelby]

I can't believe I read this and never commented, so here's a late one. No you've never been good at being brutally honest (mainly the brutal part) when it comes to the ones you love. I don't know what to tell you about the play because I can't remember any of that anymore (so sad really). I don't think Schmitty is ever up front with you about what he wants either. At least that's how it appears. Maybe he doesn't know, maybe he hasn't actually considered it because he doesn't want to, there could be a number of reasons why. I know how truly frustrating this is. I remember that part of my life with Roy. I did the whole "crap or get off the pot" thing which was bold at the time, considering I was living here. It worked but I wouldn't recommend it to anyone else, because it could have easily blown up in my face. Every once in a while I semi-jokingly say I'll just go home to NY but since Zach is here I can't use that line anymore. The truth is Men refuse to fight for you, even if they aren't a stereotypical alpha male like mine. So it's up to you to decide how much of the burden you will want to carry because I believe you'll be the one carrying it. Even if one day he declares his unconditional love for you and you two get a place together... men don't ever want to "work" on relationships. That saddens me to say but from my experience (and all my other friends in long-term relationships) that's how it appears. That's why us girls need each other!!!!! I'm wondering, do you ever talk to your Dad about this stuff? Seems like he'd have some good wisdom to share.

[aubrilee]

do not talk to either of my parents about this. maybe i don't want to hear what they have to say? maybe everyone is telling me the same thing and i'm having a hard time swallowing the truth of it.
but, things are good these days. learning to tell the difference between honesty and unloading. it's especially hard when depressed (as we learned this past week)