and then the reality
so we sat down with jeff and talked it out. i was told i either need to start chipping in so he pays less rent (he felt about $100/month was fair), or i need to "scale back". he doesn't want my food in the fridge. he doesn't want me cooking in the kitchen. he doesn't want me to be here when schmitty isn't. he doesn't want to see or hear me, basically.
so, i'm being a bit melodramatic, and rushing out the front door so i won't see him in the kitchen, and calling ahead to see if he's home, so i know which door to come in. we've agreed that there's little i can do as long as i'm still paying rent on my place, and agreed we should just see how the next month goes, because i'll be gone come mid-july, and we can reconvene in sept. to see where everything stands.
it's not that i don't want to pay rent here. i do. i just can't afford both my place and here. not that rich.
speaking of money, i realized that in hawaii i won't just be crashing in schmitty's hotel room (a common situation when we travel, where i usually pay him back in food and services), which means i'll probably be dropping out about $200-300 for a hotel. not terrible for a week, but still...not quite expected.
i'm going to see if tpr has an office in beijing. maybe i could pick up a course in beijing.
if not, i'll just be going foolishly into debt. which i was prepared for, really. at least almost all my cards are paid off, and i no longer have loan payments. that's something. and i don't have any big plans for travel until next summer (europe with daddy, jamie's wedding, erin&brock's wedding), so i'm sure i'll be ok.
i thought i'd fond the perfect person to sublet my space, but that fell through. so now i have to go through it all again. buh.
ah well, there's too much to think about, but at least i've got some of it out here, so i don't have to toss and turn all night, and grind my teeth thinking about. the anxiety dreams are killing me (and schmitty, too, probably)
also, it's been blissfully warm here. 90's to 100's (accounting for humidity and the city heat effect). i'm in heaven. everyone else thinks i'm nuts.
so, i'm being a bit melodramatic, and rushing out the front door so i won't see him in the kitchen, and calling ahead to see if he's home, so i know which door to come in. we've agreed that there's little i can do as long as i'm still paying rent on my place, and agreed we should just see how the next month goes, because i'll be gone come mid-july, and we can reconvene in sept. to see where everything stands.
it's not that i don't want to pay rent here. i do. i just can't afford both my place and here. not that rich.
speaking of money, i realized that in hawaii i won't just be crashing in schmitty's hotel room (a common situation when we travel, where i usually pay him back in food and services), which means i'll probably be dropping out about $200-300 for a hotel. not terrible for a week, but still...not quite expected.
i'm going to see if tpr has an office in beijing. maybe i could pick up a course in beijing.
if not, i'll just be going foolishly into debt. which i was prepared for, really. at least almost all my cards are paid off, and i no longer have loan payments. that's something. and i don't have any big plans for travel until next summer (europe with daddy, jamie's wedding, erin&brock's wedding), so i'm sure i'll be ok.
i thought i'd fond the perfect person to sublet my space, but that fell through. so now i have to go through it all again. buh.
ah well, there's too much to think about, but at least i've got some of it out here, so i don't have to toss and turn all night, and grind my teeth thinking about. the anxiety dreams are killing me (and schmitty, too, probably)
also, it's been blissfully warm here. 90's to 100's (accounting for humidity and the city heat effect). i'm in heaven. everyone else thinks i'm nuts.