maybe i'm getting lazier
there are just a number of things i have to do that i don't want to do. and i find that attitude is melting into all the other facets of my life. i've got to get my shit in order and go back to being focused and driven.
anyway. saturday was a double at the theatre, so my whole day was spent there, with a little break in between for dinner. i felt absolutely terrible pretty much the whole day. while walking out i saw justin leaving as well, and since i hadn't seen him in awhile, i invited him to join me and schmitty and echo and a few others over at busboy's and poets. he agreed and we all had a lovely time and some ok-ish food. by 1am i was ready to be home, tho.
sunday i only had an evening show, so the afternoon was mine to fart around as i pleased. i know schmitty and i did something, but i can't remember for the life of me. echo and i went to the gym for the first time in a week (mostly because i'd been sick all week).
monday we three went shopping. oringinally it was just gonna be me and echo, but schmitty wanted to join, so we said why not. he's surprisingly good to shop with, and makes a great critiquer/runner. i've decided i want to dress more glamorously, so i bought a bunch of trousers and shiny button down shirts. i want to be classic and glamorous. i want to wear lipstick and lipliner. i've got to buy the makeup, and the heels, and the purses, and i've REALLY got to figure out what to do with my hair. but i've got the clothes, and that feels good.
except for the hundreds of dollars i spent. that feels less good. i really did need the new clothes, but it still hurts.
afterward 7 hours of nonstop shopping we were all tired, and starving, and grumpy. i couldn't find the right exist for the drafthouse, so schmitty didn't get to see his movie. we dropped him off at home and hotfooted it up to fado's for the quiz. teeny and aaron joined us, and while we never stood a chance for the whole quiz, i still thought it was fun. we were team "dc claims arctic circle, proceeds to offer representation without taxation". we're still getting used to this team name thing ;)
afterwards i came home and schmitty and i had a VERY long talk about why we've been getting on each other's nerves for a week or so, and why we were intentionally picking on each other. we had a lot of other issues to work through, but eventually i think we got to part of the root of our problem. it's something that's come up before, and it was just getting expressed differently. it came down to both me and him needing to make some changes and needing to accept some things for what they are. we'll see if we can actually make the changes we need, because a lot of these are OLLLLLD habits, and especially in my case, it involves blindly trusting, letting myself let go of control, ask for help, and in general believing i can rely on him.
not exactly my strong point.
i REALLY need to get new tires. which means i really need to get my ass out of the house, which means i need to get done with this post.
there will be doctor updates later.
anyway. saturday was a double at the theatre, so my whole day was spent there, with a little break in between for dinner. i felt absolutely terrible pretty much the whole day. while walking out i saw justin leaving as well, and since i hadn't seen him in awhile, i invited him to join me and schmitty and echo and a few others over at busboy's and poets. he agreed and we all had a lovely time and some ok-ish food. by 1am i was ready to be home, tho.
sunday i only had an evening show, so the afternoon was mine to fart around as i pleased. i know schmitty and i did something, but i can't remember for the life of me. echo and i went to the gym for the first time in a week (mostly because i'd been sick all week).
monday we three went shopping. oringinally it was just gonna be me and echo, but schmitty wanted to join, so we said why not. he's surprisingly good to shop with, and makes a great critiquer/runner. i've decided i want to dress more glamorously, so i bought a bunch of trousers and shiny button down shirts. i want to be classic and glamorous. i want to wear lipstick and lipliner. i've got to buy the makeup, and the heels, and the purses, and i've REALLY got to figure out what to do with my hair. but i've got the clothes, and that feels good.
except for the hundreds of dollars i spent. that feels less good. i really did need the new clothes, but it still hurts.
afterward 7 hours of nonstop shopping we were all tired, and starving, and grumpy. i couldn't find the right exist for the drafthouse, so schmitty didn't get to see his movie. we dropped him off at home and hotfooted it up to fado's for the quiz. teeny and aaron joined us, and while we never stood a chance for the whole quiz, i still thought it was fun. we were team "dc claims arctic circle, proceeds to offer representation without taxation". we're still getting used to this team name thing ;)
afterwards i came home and schmitty and i had a VERY long talk about why we've been getting on each other's nerves for a week or so, and why we were intentionally picking on each other. we had a lot of other issues to work through, but eventually i think we got to part of the root of our problem. it's something that's come up before, and it was just getting expressed differently. it came down to both me and him needing to make some changes and needing to accept some things for what they are. we'll see if we can actually make the changes we need, because a lot of these are OLLLLLD habits, and especially in my case, it involves blindly trusting, letting myself let go of control, ask for help, and in general believing i can rely on him.
not exactly my strong point.
i REALLY need to get new tires. which means i really need to get my ass out of the house, which means i need to get done with this post.
there will be doctor updates later.