it's coming to a head
talked with antonio yesterday about how starbucks is driving me nuts
i told him that their inability to give me time off when requested is making my life very difficult, that i'm seeing my boyfriend for less than 36 hours a month, that i feel like i have no choice but to either end my relationship or quit my job, or risk my chances of promotion.
he said he understands, and basically said he wouldn't be hurt if i found a better job.
so, are there better jobs out there? damned if i know.
talked with jo about it, about maybe getting more hours at the bar, but there are no more hours to get, really. if i worked three days a week there, it'd equal out to my job there and starbucks, but i'd lose the healthcare. urgh.
so, i need to find another part time job. something that's about 20hrs/week.
i never should have taken this promotion. it came at a time when i didn't know if i'd have other work, and it seemed like such a good idea, but now i can see how it's just wrong. all wrong.
for the record, i last saw schmitty the weekend of the 21st. that was 2 weeks ago. i won't see him next weekend, and probably not the weekend after that. which means i won't see him until the 25th, which is a month after the fact.
not as bad as angel, yes, but still really fucking sucky.
schmitty had originally planned on coming up this weekend, but things got mucked up on his part and he won't be. i'm trying to not be frustrated, because what will that help? it won't change things, it won't make me feel better, it won't do anything. instead i'll go to work at the bar and just try to figure out when i can next see him.
so, i'm making slow progress. slow but sure. now all i have to do is find the other job. i don't know what i'll do about the healthcare. i guess go back to having dad pay for it for a month or two? until i can find some of my own. because right now i'm back to crying in the middle of the night and i just can't do it.
i told him that their inability to give me time off when requested is making my life very difficult, that i'm seeing my boyfriend for less than 36 hours a month, that i feel like i have no choice but to either end my relationship or quit my job, or risk my chances of promotion.
he said he understands, and basically said he wouldn't be hurt if i found a better job.
so, are there better jobs out there? damned if i know.
talked with jo about it, about maybe getting more hours at the bar, but there are no more hours to get, really. if i worked three days a week there, it'd equal out to my job there and starbucks, but i'd lose the healthcare. urgh.
so, i need to find another part time job. something that's about 20hrs/week.
i never should have taken this promotion. it came at a time when i didn't know if i'd have other work, and it seemed like such a good idea, but now i can see how it's just wrong. all wrong.
for the record, i last saw schmitty the weekend of the 21st. that was 2 weeks ago. i won't see him next weekend, and probably not the weekend after that. which means i won't see him until the 25th, which is a month after the fact.
not as bad as angel, yes, but still really fucking sucky.
schmitty had originally planned on coming up this weekend, but things got mucked up on his part and he won't be. i'm trying to not be frustrated, because what will that help? it won't change things, it won't make me feel better, it won't do anything. instead i'll go to work at the bar and just try to figure out when i can next see him.
so, i'm making slow progress. slow but sure. now all i have to do is find the other job. i don't know what i'll do about the healthcare. i guess go back to having dad pay for it for a month or two? until i can find some of my own. because right now i'm back to crying in the middle of the night and i just can't do it.