a weekend, and i forgot about the dentist
i wish i could have gone to dc these past two days. phones and schedules worked against that. it's ok. i'll be there this weekend.
(there are many entries that i never write or post for you guys, because they are simply full of angst over how much it totally totally totally sucks a million and six balls that i never see my boy for more than 3 days every two weeks, if that. it hurts. alot. it's not as bad off as angel, and i know someday i'll have him around all the time...at least i hope. that time is so far off in the future we try not to plan for it, because god knows what will happen between now and then to mess up those plans (like him getting a job in cali, or germany, or me taking a year to travel, or moving back to china, or having my career take off in ny, or if i did move to dc in two years would he be able to leave a year after that, and what would i do in dc if i did go there...just a million variables...). at least we both agreed this weekend that reopening the relaitonship or breaking up altogether wasn't a good solution to cope with the piss and shit involved with never seeing each other and not even being able to make chicken noodle soup for each other when we're sick, or give each other a hug when we're feeling sad....)
i went out to chill with rick last night. tried to pick up some jobs at starbucks, but to no luck. then we ate at olie's, and i'm gettign used to american chinese again...*sigh* but, no, it was good food, and great company :)
then we wandered thru the city, up around the theatre district, over to rockefellar center - where i couldn't talk him into ice skating in the rain, but made plans for bringing my boy - then to starbucks for some drinkypoos.
it was a good way to spend an evening. rick always cheers me up, and we made plans to see stomp on tuesday.
monday i cleaned the hell out of my bedroom, and moved it around a little bit to try to maximize what little space i have. someday i am going to get a futon frame....someday...
for now my concern is the, like, 6 hours i'll be clocking at starbucks this week. that blows donkey balls. for real. need to let some more stores know i'm for rent...
talked with jo for a few hours tonite, which was much needed. it makes me feel marginally less grumpy.
anyway. i should be asleep. work at the bar tomorrow.
(there are many entries that i never write or post for you guys, because they are simply full of angst over how much it totally totally totally sucks a million and six balls that i never see my boy for more than 3 days every two weeks, if that. it hurts. alot. it's not as bad off as angel, and i know someday i'll have him around all the time...at least i hope. that time is so far off in the future we try not to plan for it, because god knows what will happen between now and then to mess up those plans (like him getting a job in cali, or germany, or me taking a year to travel, or moving back to china, or having my career take off in ny, or if i did move to dc in two years would he be able to leave a year after that, and what would i do in dc if i did go there...just a million variables...). at least we both agreed this weekend that reopening the relaitonship or breaking up altogether wasn't a good solution to cope with the piss and shit involved with never seeing each other and not even being able to make chicken noodle soup for each other when we're sick, or give each other a hug when we're feeling sad....)
i went out to chill with rick last night. tried to pick up some jobs at starbucks, but to no luck. then we ate at olie's, and i'm gettign used to american chinese again...*sigh* but, no, it was good food, and great company :)
then we wandered thru the city, up around the theatre district, over to rockefellar center - where i couldn't talk him into ice skating in the rain, but made plans for bringing my boy - then to starbucks for some drinkypoos.
it was a good way to spend an evening. rick always cheers me up, and we made plans to see stomp on tuesday.
monday i cleaned the hell out of my bedroom, and moved it around a little bit to try to maximize what little space i have. someday i am going to get a futon frame....someday...
for now my concern is the, like, 6 hours i'll be clocking at starbucks this week. that blows donkey balls. for real. need to let some more stores know i'm for rent...
talked with jo for a few hours tonite, which was much needed. it makes me feel marginally less grumpy.
anyway. i should be asleep. work at the bar tomorrow.