41 days till i come home
that's a bit surreal, don't you think?
the final promo performance is tonite. i REALLY wanna cancel work and just rest today, but that would be silly. lord knows i need the cash.
monday was a good day. i was pretty snarky, altho i'm not entirely sure why. after work i went to the gym, and zhanglei was all "where have you been? i missed you" which is ALWAYS cute. a couple of the gym attendants started paying more attention to how i excercise, helped me fix my form and such, which is always good.
i was supposed to meet with wangxia, but she moved the lesson t wednesday, so instead i met up with rene and we went out for dinner. let him order all the dishes, which unfortunately came out with a bunch of cilantro. that was an interesting first bite. he didn't remember my absolute hatred of it till after i'd stuffed one of the tofu-veggie rolls in my mouth. he watched me sit there with the pained expression on my face as i tried desperately to chew and swallow. after about a minute he asked if i wanted to spit it out, which i did, and he told me to say to hell with manners and just do it, which was GREATLY appreciated. god do i hate cilantro.
afterwards we went back to his place where there was freshly made apple-spice cake with orange and lemon yogurt on top. jesus was that tastey. made up for the cilantro :)
tuesday was a miserable fucking day. just crap. it felt like night all day, with super strong winds blowing sand everywhere. sand was getting into everything, adn anything i tried to eat all day had little bits of sand on it. blech.
and it was cold.
rehearsal went smashingly. we changed sean's haunted and savage, mine and seans babble and terms of endearment, and smoothed out matt's tangled up, and carolines how i look to you and acting. it was great.
and when i left rehearsal it was SNOWING. what the fuck? it snowed maybe 5 times all damn winter, and now in the middle of april it decides to snow? i felt so bad for all the flowers!
and by snowing i mean little flakes floating around in the air and never making ti to the ground, but still being cold and snow.
bussed up to rene's where i was met with hugs and massages, as well as fresh german danishes and fresh made german bread. tastey goodness! throw in the cadbury dark chocolate i'd bought for him and some jasmine tea and you have a cosy evening.
wednesday was much better. work was good, gym was fun, class with wangxia was great, and i met up with alex afterwards. actually, i went to lush, realized i had no rmb on me (wangxia paid me in hkd! why, oh why!?) and had to start conversing with the patrons to see if they'd do a small exchange with me. also texted rene who was in the area to see if he could help me. well, some nice boys working for microsoft helped me with the cash situation, just as rene was arriving, who helped me with the drink situation (as in he put my drinks n his tab) and chilled with me till alex showed up. ALSO, he bought preparations for celebrating the final promo show, but made the mistake of telling me there were preparations. we all know i'm no good at being patient, so i made him tell me what it was. he bought a bottle of redwine and a HUGE chunk of REAL EDAM CHEESE. one for me, one for him. i couldn't believe it. i was grinning for HOURS afterwards. oh, god, did it taste good.
anyway, we 3 chilled at lush for a bit, then went to zub for 2 for 1 martinis (mmmm, fudgesicles and sour apples). alex wanted to find some ladies, adn i wasn't in the mood for propoganda, and knew i needed to get some real sleep so i would be on point for the show, so i put him in a cab to vix/mix and went back to rene's for some very sound, passed out drunk sleep.
waking up this morning was nice. we both just kinda woke up at 6:20, and were able to take our time and enjoy the morning, because he didn't need to get up for work till 7:10. he left the hotwater heater on for me, so i could take a shower after i woke up at 10, which i thought was nice.
so, yeah. i've been spending alot of time with rene, and i've been very aware of it. he's a leo, too, which means he likes what he likes and wants as much of it as possible when he wants it. this means it's kinda intense right now, seeing each other every evening, buying nice little gifts for each other and lots and lots of sex. i am a little worried he'll start to like me too much (i'm really fun to date short term, because i cant' take it too seriously and so it's a really fun and exciting relationship), and i'm even more worried he'll get burnt out on me too soon. i wanna pull this out till i go home, because it is kinda nice. i didn't mean to see him tuesday or wednesday, its just hard to turn a person down when they are all "i have tastey home made food and massages for you"
either way, i am trying to be realistic about it, and make him stay realistic.
but i'm also really enjoying having a boy and kitty to snuggle with (i LOVE his cat)
so, yeah. i know things are a little intense right now, and i promise i'm keeping my wits about me and trying to make sure he does too :)
ok. now, a mem.
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU FIRST....
FELL IN LOVE: 13.
LOST YOUR VIRGINITY: 17. 5 yrs (17yr, 6 months, 4 days to be exact) for boys. 21 for girls.
KISSED SOMEONE: oh, i'd been kissing boys my whole life. but my first french kiss was either with one of my friends younger brother (he was 6 months younger than me, i felt like such a cradle robber!) who i dated for about 12 hours (just so it would be ok, for us to make out), or my friend amanda's cousin, who was 20 yrs old and i'd been hitting on profusely for about 4 months before he chased me down one day while i was walking home and wrapped me in his arms for one of the worst kisses i've ever had. i was 13, and they both happened within days of each other.
or maybe it was scott back when i was 12/13 in the st. louis's pool! i know he tried to drown me, i'm sure we kissed a few times before then (i think...)
GOT IN A FIGHT: ben jenna and i fought like cats and dogs with nuclear arms. but i don't think i have ever really gotten into it with someone. the closest would be a fight i had with angel in, like, 9th grade, or when i choked a guy out at a party because he wouldn't leave me alone.
LOST SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU: my grampa lymon was the first person i remember dying. i missed him so much. i was 5
DRANK ALCOHOL: 11/12, at my grammas. found her wine coolers, thought they were just fizzy juice, drank all 6. oh, aubri. this isn't including the little tastes of beer and liquor my family would sometimes give us so we wouldn't like alcohol (what 6 year old LIKES whiskey?)
SMOKED WEED: never have, never will
GOT STUNG BY A BEE: i was kinda young. under 10. i was sleeping in the back of the van on our way to uncle greg's cabin for the 4th of july family reunion, and thought my brother was pinching me, but really a hornet was stuck in back and was taking it out on me.
WENT TO THE HOSPITAL: oh, i was in the hospital from the day i was born. i was a sick little baby.
GOT YOUR HEART BROKEN: 14. altho really, when mike leon wanted to spend more time with that pretty blonde girl than me i thought i would be sick. i was, like, 7 then (i loved that boy my whole life)
LOST A PET: emily. she died when i was about 5 or 6.
GOT ARRESTED: Never been.
SMOKED A CIGARETTE: 12. trying to piss my mom off for being hypocritical about cigarette smoking, and making the boy at the end of amanda's block like me.
BROKE A BONE: i seem to recall breaking or fracturing my arm when i was a little kid (talking 4-6) because my aunt and uncle were swinging me by the arm and they acceidentally lost a hold on me and off i went. i'm fuzzy on the details. mom, you can help on the details?
GOT A JOB: 12, babysitting, 13 working for penny heath photography as an assistant and sales girl.
GOT CHEATED ON: i was probably cheated on from my first boyfriends on, but the first time i KNEW about it, and it mattered, was when i was 14 and i found out my first love had been cheating on me since we'd met (a year and a half earlier).
CHEATED ON SOMEONE: hmmmm. i think i was 14, and cheating on chris (because i didn't realize how serious we were) but i may well have cheated before then. i don't really remember the boys who didn't last at least a month.
GOT A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND: oh, lordy, i dunno. i remember i had a boyfriend who i was going to marry when i was in kindergarten. we rode the bus together and he moved away and i really didn't understand what had happened. as an teenager, i think it was this 18 yr old boy named scott the summer i turned 13. hard to remember, the lines were so fuzzy back then.
RODE THE CITY BUS: i think i rode a watertown city bus to the mall once, when i was maybe 8. always rode the school bus. otherwise, it was when i got to oberlin.
WENT TO A CONCERT: k-rock-athon, with ourlady peace, stabbing westward, spacehogs, and thrid eye blind (to name a few). i was 14, i think.
MET SOMEONE FAMOUS: damned if i know....
GOT IN A CAR CRASH: don't remember any in my childhood, so i'll go with 19 yrs old when i hit a deer in nc.
RODE AN AIRPLANE: oh, god, we were always in airplanes. the first one i remember was when we went to disney world. i was 6, i think. maybe 7.
WENT TO ANOTHER STATE: does canada count? otherwise, i think it's florida again.
how many......
LONG TERM RELATIONSHIPS HAVE YOU BEEN IN: over 6 months = 2. everything else was under three months (except my first love who was on and off over a year and a half). i was the Queen of 2 week relationships
TIMES HAS YOUR HEART BEEN BROKEN: 6. that's too many times.
PETS DO You HAVE: 3 kitties - collar (11 years this june), sapphire phoebe daffodil (6yrs on the 8th of april), and oreo de jasmine ala speedbump, aka: puppy (4 yrs this june)
PEOPLE THAT You HATE: i try not to hate. but i really dislike this douche from highschool, and george bush.
TIMES HAVE You GOT DUMPED: not too many, maybe around 4 or 5
TIMES HAVE You DUMPED SOMEONE: oh, faaaaaaaar too many to count.
there. now it's time for work, and i've eaten toooo much bread and cheese (such tastey cheese!)
the final promo performance is tonite. i REALLY wanna cancel work and just rest today, but that would be silly. lord knows i need the cash.
monday was a good day. i was pretty snarky, altho i'm not entirely sure why. after work i went to the gym, and zhanglei was all "where have you been? i missed you" which is ALWAYS cute. a couple of the gym attendants started paying more attention to how i excercise, helped me fix my form and such, which is always good.
i was supposed to meet with wangxia, but she moved the lesson t wednesday, so instead i met up with rene and we went out for dinner. let him order all the dishes, which unfortunately came out with a bunch of cilantro. that was an interesting first bite. he didn't remember my absolute hatred of it till after i'd stuffed one of the tofu-veggie rolls in my mouth. he watched me sit there with the pained expression on my face as i tried desperately to chew and swallow. after about a minute he asked if i wanted to spit it out, which i did, and he told me to say to hell with manners and just do it, which was GREATLY appreciated. god do i hate cilantro.
afterwards we went back to his place where there was freshly made apple-spice cake with orange and lemon yogurt on top. jesus was that tastey. made up for the cilantro :)
tuesday was a miserable fucking day. just crap. it felt like night all day, with super strong winds blowing sand everywhere. sand was getting into everything, adn anything i tried to eat all day had little bits of sand on it. blech.
and it was cold.
rehearsal went smashingly. we changed sean's haunted and savage, mine and seans babble and terms of endearment, and smoothed out matt's tangled up, and carolines how i look to you and acting. it was great.
and when i left rehearsal it was SNOWING. what the fuck? it snowed maybe 5 times all damn winter, and now in the middle of april it decides to snow? i felt so bad for all the flowers!
and by snowing i mean little flakes floating around in the air and never making ti to the ground, but still being cold and snow.
bussed up to rene's where i was met with hugs and massages, as well as fresh german danishes and fresh made german bread. tastey goodness! throw in the cadbury dark chocolate i'd bought for him and some jasmine tea and you have a cosy evening.
wednesday was much better. work was good, gym was fun, class with wangxia was great, and i met up with alex afterwards. actually, i went to lush, realized i had no rmb on me (wangxia paid me in hkd! why, oh why!?) and had to start conversing with the patrons to see if they'd do a small exchange with me. also texted rene who was in the area to see if he could help me. well, some nice boys working for microsoft helped me with the cash situation, just as rene was arriving, who helped me with the drink situation (as in he put my drinks n his tab) and chilled with me till alex showed up. ALSO, he bought preparations for celebrating the final promo show, but made the mistake of telling me there were preparations. we all know i'm no good at being patient, so i made him tell me what it was. he bought a bottle of redwine and a HUGE chunk of REAL EDAM CHEESE. one for me, one for him. i couldn't believe it. i was grinning for HOURS afterwards. oh, god, did it taste good.
anyway, we 3 chilled at lush for a bit, then went to zub for 2 for 1 martinis (mmmm, fudgesicles and sour apples). alex wanted to find some ladies, adn i wasn't in the mood for propoganda, and knew i needed to get some real sleep so i would be on point for the show, so i put him in a cab to vix/mix and went back to rene's for some very sound, passed out drunk sleep.
waking up this morning was nice. we both just kinda woke up at 6:20, and were able to take our time and enjoy the morning, because he didn't need to get up for work till 7:10. he left the hotwater heater on for me, so i could take a shower after i woke up at 10, which i thought was nice.
so, yeah. i've been spending alot of time with rene, and i've been very aware of it. he's a leo, too, which means he likes what he likes and wants as much of it as possible when he wants it. this means it's kinda intense right now, seeing each other every evening, buying nice little gifts for each other and lots and lots of sex. i am a little worried he'll start to like me too much (i'm really fun to date short term, because i cant' take it too seriously and so it's a really fun and exciting relationship), and i'm even more worried he'll get burnt out on me too soon. i wanna pull this out till i go home, because it is kinda nice. i didn't mean to see him tuesday or wednesday, its just hard to turn a person down when they are all "i have tastey home made food and massages for you"
either way, i am trying to be realistic about it, and make him stay realistic.
but i'm also really enjoying having a boy and kitty to snuggle with (i LOVE his cat)
so, yeah. i know things are a little intense right now, and i promise i'm keeping my wits about me and trying to make sure he does too :)
ok. now, a mem.
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU FIRST....
FELL IN LOVE: 13.
LOST YOUR VIRGINITY: 17. 5 yrs (17yr, 6 months, 4 days to be exact) for boys. 21 for girls.
KISSED SOMEONE: oh, i'd been kissing boys my whole life. but my first french kiss was either with one of my friends younger brother (he was 6 months younger than me, i felt like such a cradle robber!) who i dated for about 12 hours (just so it would be ok, for us to make out), or my friend amanda's cousin, who was 20 yrs old and i'd been hitting on profusely for about 4 months before he chased me down one day while i was walking home and wrapped me in his arms for one of the worst kisses i've ever had. i was 13, and they both happened within days of each other.
or maybe it was scott back when i was 12/13 in the st. louis's pool! i know he tried to drown me, i'm sure we kissed a few times before then (i think...)
GOT IN A FIGHT: ben jenna and i fought like cats and dogs with nuclear arms. but i don't think i have ever really gotten into it with someone. the closest would be a fight i had with angel in, like, 9th grade, or when i choked a guy out at a party because he wouldn't leave me alone.
LOST SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU: my grampa lymon was the first person i remember dying. i missed him so much. i was 5
DRANK ALCOHOL: 11/12, at my grammas. found her wine coolers, thought they were just fizzy juice, drank all 6. oh, aubri. this isn't including the little tastes of beer and liquor my family would sometimes give us so we wouldn't like alcohol (what 6 year old LIKES whiskey?)
SMOKED WEED: never have, never will
GOT STUNG BY A BEE: i was kinda young. under 10. i was sleeping in the back of the van on our way to uncle greg's cabin for the 4th of july family reunion, and thought my brother was pinching me, but really a hornet was stuck in back and was taking it out on me.
WENT TO THE HOSPITAL: oh, i was in the hospital from the day i was born. i was a sick little baby.
GOT YOUR HEART BROKEN: 14. altho really, when mike leon wanted to spend more time with that pretty blonde girl than me i thought i would be sick. i was, like, 7 then (i loved that boy my whole life)
LOST A PET: emily. she died when i was about 5 or 6.
GOT ARRESTED: Never been.
SMOKED A CIGARETTE: 12. trying to piss my mom off for being hypocritical about cigarette smoking, and making the boy at the end of amanda's block like me.
BROKE A BONE: i seem to recall breaking or fracturing my arm when i was a little kid (talking 4-6) because my aunt and uncle were swinging me by the arm and they acceidentally lost a hold on me and off i went. i'm fuzzy on the details. mom, you can help on the details?
GOT A JOB: 12, babysitting, 13 working for penny heath photography as an assistant and sales girl.
GOT CHEATED ON: i was probably cheated on from my first boyfriends on, but the first time i KNEW about it, and it mattered, was when i was 14 and i found out my first love had been cheating on me since we'd met (a year and a half earlier).
CHEATED ON SOMEONE: hmmmm. i think i was 14, and cheating on chris (because i didn't realize how serious we were) but i may well have cheated before then. i don't really remember the boys who didn't last at least a month.
GOT A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND: oh, lordy, i dunno. i remember i had a boyfriend who i was going to marry when i was in kindergarten. we rode the bus together and he moved away and i really didn't understand what had happened. as an teenager, i think it was this 18 yr old boy named scott the summer i turned 13. hard to remember, the lines were so fuzzy back then.
RODE THE CITY BUS: i think i rode a watertown city bus to the mall once, when i was maybe 8. always rode the school bus. otherwise, it was when i got to oberlin.
WENT TO A CONCERT: k-rock-athon, with ourlady peace, stabbing westward, spacehogs, and thrid eye blind (to name a few). i was 14, i think.
MET SOMEONE FAMOUS: damned if i know....
GOT IN A CAR CRASH: don't remember any in my childhood, so i'll go with 19 yrs old when i hit a deer in nc.
RODE AN AIRPLANE: oh, god, we were always in airplanes. the first one i remember was when we went to disney world. i was 6, i think. maybe 7.
WENT TO ANOTHER STATE: does canada count? otherwise, i think it's florida again.
how many......
LONG TERM RELATIONSHIPS HAVE YOU BEEN IN: over 6 months = 2. everything else was under three months (except my first love who was on and off over a year and a half). i was the Queen of 2 week relationships
TIMES HAS YOUR HEART BEEN BROKEN: 6. that's too many times.
PETS DO You HAVE: 3 kitties - collar (11 years this june), sapphire phoebe daffodil (6yrs on the 8th of april), and oreo de jasmine ala speedbump, aka: puppy (4 yrs this june)
PEOPLE THAT You HATE: i try not to hate. but i really dislike this douche from highschool, and george bush.
TIMES HAVE You GOT DUMPED: not too many, maybe around 4 or 5
TIMES HAVE You DUMPED SOMEONE: oh, faaaaaaaar too many to count.
there. now it's time for work, and i've eaten toooo much bread and cheese (such tastey cheese!)