Quick update at t-minus 12 days
Give or take, of course. I cannot believe that I am so close to my due date. This ride is about to get a lot more interesting. Not that I've been bored, ever... But... I am going to be the mama of *2* kidlets! I know, thanks Capt. Obvious, but sometimes I feel like I'm going to be giving birth to Tai again. Yes, Slyko will be a newborn, as he was, but I will also have a preschooler. And she will be a whole other person, with a personality and self of her own. I am excited about this, of course. I can't wait to meet her and watch her grow and become a Someone rather than the Anyone she feels like now. And how will Tai take it? And how will I give him all the love he deserves and her too? (I will say that reading him nighttime stories cuddled up in the little bedroom chair will be much easier without the ginormous belly.). This is going to be even more of an adventure and I am trying to just go with the flow.
Which has been a mix of rapids and more calm waters lately. Mom finally got that my decision is mine, she could never have changed my mind, and while she still doesn't agree (and asked a little wistfully if my doula might make me comfortable enough to birth in the hospital...) she had mostly settled down. She met with Sue at one of my appointments and it went well. She felt more comfortable, Sue didn't get attacked by Lawyer Mom of Doom and so all is right with the world. I am relieved.... The whole issue had been sitting between Mom and I and it was getting hard to just relax with her.
Slyko is doing her thing in there. I'm pretty sure I feel her feet in the top right of my uterus (I am horrible about remembering the proper directional names.). I feel her butt up around my ribs pretty confidently. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a better position for labor than last time. Sue guesses she might be Tai's size right about now (7 lbs, 3oz). Her heartbeat sounds good, and I feel her head pressing down in my pelvis. I am ready!
Really ready because when Sue took my blood pressure at our appointment today, it was a little high, for me. (fortunately still in normal range). And the was some protein in my urine. And my hands have been puffier than they had been. And I'd gained 4lbs in a week. Put it all together and you end up with me doing a 24 hour pee collection and hoping that all this desire for home birth isn't going to end up with pre-eclampsia.
Side note: I called twirlgrrl for venting and said, how concerned should I be? She pointed out that whether or not I get pre-e isn't in my control, so concern wouldn't really change anything. (Ha! Duh, me.). She also gave me more practical advice like - eat cucumber and drink lemon water to help with water retention, and to sit down a few times in my day and just relax and empty my mind - calm that blood pressure. She reminded me that all of the symptoms could be a normal part of pregnancy and I'm doing what I need to to check it out and keep an eye on it. We didnt talk long (she was in the middle of an errand and Tai had a friend over and they were freaking out) but it helped.
Now I'm trying to ignore this cold number 572 of my pregnancy (owww, my throat! *cough cough whine*) and hoping that Slyko will come soon. Like, tomorrow! Why not?
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