OMG....what is wrong with me?
I want to be a different person. Im not one of those people that sees all the bad or not even bad things in or on themselves and wants to change but this is different. I have problems i need ot fix. I hate living life this way some times. I worry about everything...i overthink. Its stupid the littlest, randomist thing can happen and I carry it with me always. Things no one will remember, i will. Im sick of worry, of anxiety, of depression. And then when i think of these things and how im freaking out about my life and really not the big of deal, i get even more "crazy" because i think about what i can become or something. I hate this, i want to get over all this an forget but i never can. its always there. I want to be normal if there is such a thing. I want to stop freaking out about things, worrying for no reason. I want to stop crying at the most randomest of times, when it all hits me. The most random thing can happen to make me sad or worried and everything will just all come out. thats not right. i want to be calm. I want to stop crying...in the bathroom alone....at night when i sleep...when i think too much. I want to live....
...sorry about that, i needed it.
...sorry about that, i needed it.