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Ok, well I'm in Auburn and I'm only here for 2 more days. I re-realized when I got here how much I LOVE this place. And that concludes the warm and fuzzy portion of today's post. For the past 3 days I have been sick all day and night. The problem with that, is that I'm not actually ill, my hurt is just manifesting itself in physical symptoms this time. I know that I've had my heart broken and I know what that pain feels like, but I never really understood what people meant when they talked about having a hole, feeling nothingness. Well, now I do. All I want is for everyone I love to be happy, yet I can't seem to let myself be happy. Some of this is my fault, but some of it comes from outside sources... say friends who promise you things and then don't follow through, or people that just plain don't have common courtesy. I really wanted my vacation home to be a happy time and for the most part it was, except for the sick feeling I've had for the past few days and all the crying I've been doing and the hurt and anger I'm holding onto and can't seem to let go.