Also, I'm Watching A Movie That Takes Place In High School.

[atypicaltaylor]

I cleaned out my closets and drawers today, which isn't really noteworthy, except... it was so strange going through all of my favorite things from literally four years ago, all of the brand names like Abercrombie and American Eagle and whatnot (some of which still fit, ha!), and it took me a bit, but it struck me that I never really liked most of that stuff. Some of it I liked and some of it I still do, but I used to own a ridiculous amont. And, really, it's not that I don't like their clothes, it's more that their clothes just, for the most part, aren't for me; they fit me funny, and look out of place on me. I realized that, really, I had just convinced myself that I liked it, because I convinced myself that if I wore the same clothes as all of the rest of the girls, I would be able to attract the same boys they did. I also found the rap/r&b mixes that I made of the rap/r&b songs that I actually liked when I went through my rap/r&b year. It's silly, of course, because it was high school. I think what I liked about Junior year is that I just kind of forgot all of that, and stopped really caring about most of that, which was a great feeling. I still dress for myself more than anything, and I definitely listen to the things that I want regardless of anything/one else, and it still feels just as good. It's just kind of strange to come to that realization about my younger self. Not that I didn't realize it before, just that I'm more conscious about it now, I guess? It also made me curious about how the scenester highschool kids will react to their scenester-dom in four years.

All of this has very good timing with icicle_'s last entry (which you can't read if you're not her friend... suckers!)