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[atypical_me]

It's been a long and difficult month. But A couple positive things have hAppened...and I had high hopes that it would last a Bit longer than this. But, after only two full dAys of him getting out. It seems we've already had a Stint with his old ways. I spent my night worried as hell, then freaking out, then ending my night with pure disappoinrment and hopelessness. It's amazing how much you'll put yourself through when you really care about someone. I just hope that if it reAlly doesn't change that I have the strength to walk away. I can't stick around to watch someone self destruct after all the blessings and second chances he's had. His brother tAlked to me last night. Told me he's got me figured out. That I want to help Ryan.and he's like a million piece puzzle that I'm trying to put together aNd keep from fAlling apart. But every time I think I've mAde progress he's gotta do something to scramble the board. Again and again.
And he's right.
Ryan and I will figure it out and things will be fine for a while, but who knows what will happen next.

I guess I just have high hopes for people. And my heart doesn't give false impressions. Everything haPpens for a reason, and I can't wait to get a glimpse of what it is.

I lost friend recently. I have a few things to say about that, so whenever I can write again, it will be about him.