It's never any easier
Today is the day that I've been really unexcited about for months now. When I found out a few months ago that he would be leaving me-- I changed my mind about things a million times since then.
When you get into a relationship with someone, you never know if things are going to work out, if he is "the one" or what the future will eventually hold for you. At least I never knew any of these things for sure until now. I have totally figured out what it is about him that I absolutely love and adore. He deserves the chance to at least feel love once in his life from woman. He deserves what I can give him, and sure he's made mistakes, as have I, but he has done more than enough to assure me that I am everything he wants. Makes me feel beautiful, is my best friend, and believes in me. More than that-- he puts up with me. And anyone who knows me well enough knows that I can be a lot to handle at times. But overall-- I want to give him all of the chances that other guys never gave me. Because, well, Jason has obviously taken some chances on being with me too. And let's face it, he makes me smile so hard. He is the sweetest person I have ever met in my life- and although he is not "julies type", maybe julie's type wasn't the best the first ten times around.
I've fallen in love with someone who might very well be my oppsite, and it's working. The next 6 months are going to be so difficult, but I hope to be able to pull my own weight and not fuck this up.
In a few months time, I'll be making my way to arizona.
Let's hope I can make it that far.
When you get into a relationship with someone, you never know if things are going to work out, if he is "the one" or what the future will eventually hold for you. At least I never knew any of these things for sure until now. I have totally figured out what it is about him that I absolutely love and adore. He deserves the chance to at least feel love once in his life from woman. He deserves what I can give him, and sure he's made mistakes, as have I, but he has done more than enough to assure me that I am everything he wants. Makes me feel beautiful, is my best friend, and believes in me. More than that-- he puts up with me. And anyone who knows me well enough knows that I can be a lot to handle at times. But overall-- I want to give him all of the chances that other guys never gave me. Because, well, Jason has obviously taken some chances on being with me too. And let's face it, he makes me smile so hard. He is the sweetest person I have ever met in my life- and although he is not "julies type", maybe julie's type wasn't the best the first ten times around.
I've fallen in love with someone who might very well be my oppsite, and it's working. The next 6 months are going to be so difficult, but I hope to be able to pull my own weight and not fuck this up.
In a few months time, I'll be making my way to arizona.
Let's hope I can make it that far.