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The links in my world are changing. Smoking will be gone in a few days. 65% of an already modest income will leave me for Alabama. Classes have begun, and I may be in trouble with the amount of classes I need to graduate; from 8-20! I will not know for sure until I get in touch with the Dean. But for some strange reason I am feeling rather brave. My material resources maybe small, but I have this wealth around me like no other. I have my female figure. I have my family here in Chicago. I have my resolve, and I have my head.
The shifts in my life make for discomfort only because I choose to rely on them. It can be dissapointing, but I am no longer dissapointed. I feel a little detached from these kind of terrors as of late. Yes things are worth believing, things are still worth doing, and there are those still worth loving. I just know what I am getting into, and I am ready to accept the consequences or stand my ground as my best judgement sees fit.
I was talking to Jen about this; trust is scary. It seems it might be easier to shut up and rely on only me. It is hard to trust, and rightfully so. With so many things pulled away I cannot really be sure what will be next. But I want something, and I am going to get it. I trust my friends to be my friends, and you to be you. Strong winds are heading in. Many deaths tonight. One of them won't be me.
HiL out
The shifts in my life make for discomfort only because I choose to rely on them. It can be dissapointing, but I am no longer dissapointed. I feel a little detached from these kind of terrors as of late. Yes things are worth believing, things are still worth doing, and there are those still worth loving. I just know what I am getting into, and I am ready to accept the consequences or stand my ground as my best judgement sees fit.
I was talking to Jen about this; trust is scary. It seems it might be easier to shut up and rely on only me. It is hard to trust, and rightfully so. With so many things pulled away I cannot really be sure what will be next. But I want something, and I am going to get it. I trust my friends to be my friends, and you to be you. Strong winds are heading in. Many deaths tonight. One of them won't be me.
HiL out