Loose Ends
I thought it would be good to try and net all these thoughts flying through my mind lately. I have had been waving the banner of being too busy, and that has fallen on my social life a little hard. I realize this now after being out for the past two days with friends I have not seen in a while. It makes me question how long I should wait here for
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Many thanks. I figure that's what it is. I have no urges to turn my back on what happened before now. I can look at it and not shrug. It is what I did, and all I see is that this is what I am from it. It is not so bad.
I have learned to forgive myself in fair weather. I believe the violent things are behind me now. I am older and settled. I have been through a lot, and am willing to do more. I have found a source of redemption. I have found comfort in confidence. I can sometimes see some form of compassion in me.
Things are about as good as they have ever been for me. I feel strong. I can speak for myself. I feel smart. I can meet a challenge or two with bravery. My vision does not have to bend with every onward glance. I feel healthy.
Though I still see a shadow to all this sunshine. I am afraid I will forget the lessons I had to learn to get here. Though I know I can humble myself when I am reminded that I need to. I just hope that I can be strong, outspoken, and humble all at once.
What a weird world John, I'm telling you there is a whole lot of things happening at once out there.
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