Aug 21, 2007 21:26
I have another urge to write, but nothing to write about. I am all farts and no turd. Hell yeah I wrote that.
But while I have some attention let me write about Jen for a moment. Let me tell you about us. We have been dating for 7 months 22 days and 18 hours. I miss her like crazy, and I love her crazier than I miss her. For a while I didn't know if I should say that out loud. I mean, since we started dating. Maybe these are feelings that are best kept private. Or maybe it would be something like jinxing a good thing. There is a thought that maybe someone will try and rip it from my hands, because they will be jealous. Whatever the case is, I have wrote about her for years on this journal, and my love for her is more than well known. Its about damn time I say here again.
She is good to me, and I get to be good to her. Waking up and thinking about how I am going to be good to her is the best part of my day. I get to think of things that might make her happy, and then do them because it simply makes me happy to do it. I think this is something people ought to know. We have been developing into something more serious as time goes on, and one day well ...one day maybe...
Talking about love, to me, sometimes makes me feel like I am being naive. Like the whole world knows something already, and I am fool. Maybe I am a fool, but I am happy. Naive? No. I know what is going on enough. Foolish? I know what this is worth in the world. Maybe that's why I have been shy on expressing it. Its rare.
***now for my lecture***
I want to say that Love works for me only because I know what it takes. Love does not pose to be an easy thing. In fact I think love demands only the best we have to offer. It will make you live up to the highest standards. It will make you want to live up to these standards because in the end these values come from yourself.
Love should be faced not feared. Love is strong as hell. Sometimes it puts you into a headlock and pulls your hair. But this happens too often because of the way we treat it. Love is a set of rules to live by, and these rules have to be tested to know what they are. How many people write about love? How many think that a book or magazine article is enough to know what they are dealing with? But what is all of that with out contact? Try and base it off of some well thought out experience and see what you get. Love will drag you back in the ring if you try and step out, so just don't. Just learn from it.
Look closely and you will notice that love provides it's own perspective on what you should do. Love is not a brawler it is just you trying to reconcile who you are with what love is telling you who you can be. Think hard, act cautiously, and be honest; that's a good start for anything. Try it. You'll like it.