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And so... I decided to give this LJ an update.
Prom was great. I had a great time with my friends. My date was Trisha (my best friend) and she looked amazing. I'm not going to go into too much detail; but overall, the night was perfect... What more could I ask for?
Okay, so this week was one of the worse weeks ever. Too much drama and so much crap I had to deal with. I was so depressed... that I went to the extreme... I drank a few shots of alcohol. (but not the point where I got drunk). Those of you who know me, know that I don't drink. However, my judgment was impaired... I was so miserable and just couldn't handle it anymore. I was so frustrated, that I wanted to get rid of the pain... and stupid me... I figured drinking would solve everything. Oh man, was I wrong.
This one person ruined it for me...my so called "best friend." The one person who I trusted... the one person who I truly cared about... the one person who I would do anything for. Well, I couldn't take all of the shit that he put me through... I felt so used and I was always disappointed. Yes, at times he would be the coolest person in the world (when he wanted to be), but we would argue almost everday. And yes... I'll admit... I was at fault at times, but he never changed. He was still the same person for as long as I've known him. Anyways, I went against what all my friends said after sorting out my problems. They would tell me... "He's not even worth it" or nag me with "John, you deserve better... you have a lot of friends who truly care about you." But in spite of what they said, I went with my gut feeling... to try to work things out. I had so much FAITH that things would get better, but unfortunately, things were the same. I learned the hard way. I felt so stupid... believing that he would change. And until today, I was just fed up with it and it had to end. It sucked a lot, but you know, friends do come and go. I'm just glad it's all over now... I feel so liberated. Now I know....to stick with the friends that I have now... people who actually care and have been there for me when I needed them the most.
Overall, throughout this experience, I think I've grown mentally. In a sense, I can proudly say that I have fulfilled my goal of finally standing up for myself (that is, with the help of my friends).
In all honesty, I have no sympathy for this kid for what he's done to me. He brought me down. Hopefully one day, he'll learn. He's just at the point where he's slowly maturing... and all I can say to him is GOOD LUCK. Oh, and also... try some anger management classes while your at it. I think it'll benefit you in the long run. When you realized what you've done, try talking to me. I want to check up on how you're doing... But for now, it's OVER. The End.
I'm going to be 18 in less than an hour. I'll be LEGAL!!!
Until next post, <3 John