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Last night sucked. I didn't have much to do so I did a lot of reading. I'm not one of those people who read for fun , so you know I had to be really bored. Anyways I got to reading and I realized a few things. One being that a lot can change in a short amount of time. Things that you would not think. But when it does that ish hits hard. Sometimes, not very often, I see something that makes me think, and when the little mouse gets that wheel turning it's hard for me to get the fker to stop. I tend to dwell on it long enough to upset myself. I hate that. But hey what can you do? Two, being that in life you only really have two choices, You can approach the issue or turn the other cheek. For example, the first kiss between Danielle and I was not brought on by me. I was willing to walk away thinking what could have been. Don't get me wrong I wanted to kiss her more than anything, I just didn't have the balls to do it. But she did. And when we found out she was going to have a baby I was all over it. To me there was no other way to deal with that besides head on. And I could not be happier with the choice WE'VE made. I guess what I'm just trying to say what's on my mind without saying it. I dont know. I wish there was someone here that I can talk to. Someone like my good pal Chris. I really feel like I'm about to lose something that means the world to me, and that there is nothing that I can do to prevent it from happening. Especially because I'm so far from home. I don't know. I really do wish that there was someone that I can talk to.