I wish...

[attera_nox]

I wish I could avoid mistakes,
If they still happened, I would learn;
I wish I used my inner brakes
Before I saw there's no return;

I wish my bills were always paid;
I wish I could accept the crowd;
I wish i could disguise my hate
And blast my music not so loud;

I wish I knew those famous names
And understood those fashion laws;
I wish I learnt to play these games
Accepting answers "just because";

I wish I never could create
And never knew about this itch;
I wish my things were always "great",
I wish I loved like usual bitch;

I wish obedience drove my brain,
I wish a blindfold on my eyes,
I wish I always did what's sane
And had respect for sacred lies;

I wish I could be one of them
Who never looks for extra drive
And lives for single earthly aim...
But then I'd never been alive.