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With all the birthdays of people I once knew having come and gone, it makes me wonder about my own. I turn 21 soon, and I know that a few people in my new group of friends will remember ( or will be reminded by this i suppose) but I still wonder about the people I once knew. I know I'm probably going to end up goign to a bar of some sort at the insistance of the new group, and I suppose that's nice, if nothing else but I enjoy thier company.
But even in this group, I'm the outsider. And even having broken it down to individual pairings, I am still the odd man out.
Oh never mind. I'm just being whiney and probably expecting too much.
Hoping that there might be a place for me somewhere.
Hoping that the people I loved a time ago would even remember me.
/shrug
What am I thinking?
If they remember me. If they cared.. If we'd have anything to say to each other if we saw each other. If we'd even acknowledge each other's exsistnce in passing...
But even in this group, I'm the outsider. And even having broken it down to individual pairings, I am still the odd man out.
Oh never mind. I'm just being whiney and probably expecting too much.
Hoping that there might be a place for me somewhere.
Hoping that the people I loved a time ago would even remember me.
/shrug
What am I thinking?
If they remember me. If they cared.. If we'd have anything to say to each other if we saw each other. If we'd even acknowledge each other's exsistnce in passing...