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So I broke up with Luis today (the longest relationship I've ever had: almost 5 months, on the 8th next month) while I was at the beach with Carmen
He called me and told me another one of his lame excuses for him to question whether he should move with me to D.C. or not. He was telling me how his mom didn't want him to get his GED in order to live with me since he failed Oceanography and has to go to highschool another year. He told me to go ahead and move to Texas or wherever and in 6 months after this TCC program to finish highschool he was going to fly over there to move with me. I know this would never happen because he doesn't save up money for shit. He doesn't even have a bank account and he is so irresponsible with money. If his brother wanted him to spend money or something he would do it because he is totally whipped by his 23 year old brother which is married but still lives in the same house as his family, works at a shitty restraunt and goes to night school.
So I basically told Luis just like I told him many times before, if he doesn't do this to be with me it would never work out because I have done everything for him. If I'm in the middle of doing something with my sister or anything and he wanted to hang out most of the time I would drop everything to be with him but for example a few nights ago he promised me we would sneak into his neighborhood pool and hang out but his brother wanted for him, Luis, Luis' friend John and Luis' little brother to all play poker at their house and "Vicky if she wants" he was like well lets just do that so I was somewhat openly mad about it but went along with it like the good girlfriend I was but after an hour I got bored/tired after having 2 and 1/4 wine coolers and said I was going home and Luis just said 'are you sure' and I said yes and I was blatenly kinda tipsy. He seldomly surprises me with things. He lied to me all the time I still don't know if he cheated on me with these drunk girls he went out with like a month ago. I don't know if I could ever trust him and I know you can't have a relationship without trust. But at the same time there are so many qualities about him I don't know if I could find in another guy.
My dad was being a jerk to me after and I got really upset but he apologized and was nice again but than a few minutes ago he was mad because Carmen and I got home at like 11:45 at night from getting icecream so he like slammed his door after he bitched about how late it was. I wish he could understand how insecure I'm feeling right now and his criticism only makes me feel like I can't do better than Luis and I should be back with him.
So my sister Carmen, my mom, and I are temporarily moving to Washington D.C. until I figure out if I want to move back to Texas, move to California to live with my friend Cristina, or stay in D.C. or what. I just can't stay here and have all these things to remind me of him. I'm so depressed right now but confused if I should be or not.
Anyway I'm tired and half of me wants him to call and half of me doesn't. If that even makes any sense who knows or cares.
He called me and told me another one of his lame excuses for him to question whether he should move with me to D.C. or not. He was telling me how his mom didn't want him to get his GED in order to live with me since he failed Oceanography and has to go to highschool another year. He told me to go ahead and move to Texas or wherever and in 6 months after this TCC program to finish highschool he was going to fly over there to move with me. I know this would never happen because he doesn't save up money for shit. He doesn't even have a bank account and he is so irresponsible with money. If his brother wanted him to spend money or something he would do it because he is totally whipped by his 23 year old brother which is married but still lives in the same house as his family, works at a shitty restraunt and goes to night school.
So I basically told Luis just like I told him many times before, if he doesn't do this to be with me it would never work out because I have done everything for him. If I'm in the middle of doing something with my sister or anything and he wanted to hang out most of the time I would drop everything to be with him but for example a few nights ago he promised me we would sneak into his neighborhood pool and hang out but his brother wanted for him, Luis, Luis' friend John and Luis' little brother to all play poker at their house and "Vicky if she wants" he was like well lets just do that so I was somewhat openly mad about it but went along with it like the good girlfriend I was but after an hour I got bored/tired after having 2 and 1/4 wine coolers and said I was going home and Luis just said 'are you sure' and I said yes and I was blatenly kinda tipsy. He seldomly surprises me with things. He lied to me all the time I still don't know if he cheated on me with these drunk girls he went out with like a month ago. I don't know if I could ever trust him and I know you can't have a relationship without trust. But at the same time there are so many qualities about him I don't know if I could find in another guy.
My dad was being a jerk to me after and I got really upset but he apologized and was nice again but than a few minutes ago he was mad because Carmen and I got home at like 11:45 at night from getting icecream so he like slammed his door after he bitched about how late it was. I wish he could understand how insecure I'm feeling right now and his criticism only makes me feel like I can't do better than Luis and I should be back with him.
So my sister Carmen, my mom, and I are temporarily moving to Washington D.C. until I figure out if I want to move back to Texas, move to California to live with my friend Cristina, or stay in D.C. or what. I just can't stay here and have all these things to remind me of him. I'm so depressed right now but confused if I should be or not.
Anyway I'm tired and half of me wants him to call and half of me doesn't. If that even makes any sense who knows or cares.