when can i find the exit?

[atozuka]

i want to thank everyone who commented on my previous post.  i feel much better now. but i'm still waiting for the result.  i hope everything is ok too.  i guess i should be happy today cause my boss at my current job just offered me the full time auditor position.  of course i'm really happy but with the problem i have right now that haven't been solved, i'm a bit worry rather i can still take the full time position.  *sigh.  i work so hard to get what i really want and now it looks like it might get ruined.  i really want to know what i did wrong to deserve such bad luck.

on the brighter side, i am really happy that i have such a wonderful and caring boyfriend.  he really helped me alot and supported me throughout this incident.  i really don't want to worry anyone so i try not to show it on my face.  which can be tough too, i am a human being afterall.

ahh....kami sama, please help me solve this problem and let me find a way out right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't stand it anymore!!!!! i'm so stressed out!!!! the more i think about it, the more i'm stressed out.

sorry if i couldn't comment or visit your LJ lately.  i will after this thing is over.