karma
i can't say all doctors are bad, but i really hate those doctors at my grandmother's hospital. they keep pushing us to make decision about rather to keep my grandmother or to let her go, what the hell is that? it's only been 8 days, it takes time for a patient to recover, how can you expect a 70 years old person to recover in just 8 days? it might be true that my grandma's condition didn't really improve much, but at least she can breathe on her own right now, so i think this is a really huge improvement. all those fucking doctors keep saying she's not doing good at all and she's not improvement either. are they blind or what? all they ever do are to scare us with those words. i really want to kick their ugly ass!!!! i see all those people who are in coma, they still live, and my grandmother is not even a fully coma person. someday, karma will harm those stupid doctors. i believe what goes around comes around.
i think those doctors think that since my grandmother will probably not going to recover and so they don't want to waste anymore of their precious money on a patient like her. that's what pisses me off! some of my family members want my grandma to go because they didn't want to see her suffer; that i understand, but is that really want she wants? i know i'm being selfish here, but what if her will is to live? that's why she's trying her best right now to recover little by little. it's true that everyone must die someday, but i still believe life is really precious, no matter what, no one should give in. i just hate when doctors are being pushy about a patient's health.
what really makes me sad is that, my grandmother's birthday is this month too, and i really hope she can live till that day. sometimes i wish i can take over her place so she won't have to suffer.