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these past couple of days have been so damn stressful. ive had non stop headaches that hurt like hell. its just that ive had a lot on my mind. and I don’t know why but for me its hard to just let things go. I think about it all day everyday, or until it gets resolved or it just happens to work itself out.
school is about to start and at first I was excited about going, but now im really not. I think about why im going, and if its even worth it. I mean ya im going to school, I think I know what im doing, but what if im wasting my time.
Today I went to dinner with Jennifer and Calina and Flor and Tom showed up later. it was nice. then Jennifer told us that this summer she wasn’t coming home that she was in fact going to move and live in Milwaukee this summer and he parents were moving to Indiana. it was kind of shocking but what can we do. I feel like im losing all of my friends one by one.
ive been so depressed the last 2 days. ive never been through the shit im going through and it hurts so much. someone I haven’t talked to in a couple months texts me and says that we can start talking again and at first I was so damn happy and it went good for about a couple days. but then out of nowhere I was was being ignored and I wasn’t getting any response back. I asked if they were getting my messages and the response was that they were on their day off and they were resting, and I was just like ok.. so then today I texted again and asked what was wrong and if why I haven’t gotten and replies and she said that she hasn’t been texting back since she found out she has to pay for them and I was like ok why did u just tell me that instead of ignoring me. but of course no fuckin response. I tried calling awhile ago but no answer, and so I just sent a text asking if im wasting my time and that I should at least have the right to know if I am. and again no response yet. I am getting so fuckin aggravated. it hurts so damn much. I had a good feeling about us talking again and I started to have feelings that made me happy. I almost cried myself to sleep last night. I don’t want to go through this anymore and at the same time I cant stop thinking about it. at this point I just want to forget all about it. I want to be brainwashed. I hate this fuckin feeling.....
school is about to start and at first I was excited about going, but now im really not. I think about why im going, and if its even worth it. I mean ya im going to school, I think I know what im doing, but what if im wasting my time.
Today I went to dinner with Jennifer and Calina and Flor and Tom showed up later. it was nice. then Jennifer told us that this summer she wasn’t coming home that she was in fact going to move and live in Milwaukee this summer and he parents were moving to Indiana. it was kind of shocking but what can we do. I feel like im losing all of my friends one by one.
ive been so depressed the last 2 days. ive never been through the shit im going through and it hurts so much. someone I haven’t talked to in a couple months texts me and says that we can start talking again and at first I was so damn happy and it went good for about a couple days. but then out of nowhere I was was being ignored and I wasn’t getting any response back. I asked if they were getting my messages and the response was that they were on their day off and they were resting, and I was just like ok.. so then today I texted again and asked what was wrong and if why I haven’t gotten and replies and she said that she hasn’t been texting back since she found out she has to pay for them and I was like ok why did u just tell me that instead of ignoring me. but of course no fuckin response. I tried calling awhile ago but no answer, and so I just sent a text asking if im wasting my time and that I should at least have the right to know if I am. and again no response yet. I am getting so fuckin aggravated. it hurts so damn much. I had a good feeling about us talking again and I started to have feelings that made me happy. I almost cried myself to sleep last night. I don’t want to go through this anymore and at the same time I cant stop thinking about it. at this point I just want to forget all about it. I want to be brainwashed. I hate this fuckin feeling.....