hey, you know what?
i think i'm going to go get a tarot card reading after work tonight. see what the cards/stars have to say. maybe they'll give me some answers, since no one else can.
then i will get drunk. and be alone. and try to learn how to be ok with it.
...then tomorrow i will make an appointment with a therapist. something needs to change and i need to figure out how to deal with things. figure out why i'm the way i am.
only nine days until i'm home.
seems like it's hot everywhere but here.
i can't wait to get into some heat.
work on my tan, float around the pool.
hang out with my mom and sisters.
go to the zoo, gate's, gojo's, maybe world's of fun, hang out with sarah t.
get drunk, hang out with the 2 friends i might still have.
relax, and not think about anything. no worries about mark, work, or time.
empty out my head.
i'm a sad, pathetic, lonely individual.
something needs to change.
then i will get drunk. and be alone. and try to learn how to be ok with it.
...then tomorrow i will make an appointment with a therapist. something needs to change and i need to figure out how to deal with things. figure out why i'm the way i am.
only nine days until i'm home.
seems like it's hot everywhere but here.
i can't wait to get into some heat.
work on my tan, float around the pool.
hang out with my mom and sisters.
go to the zoo, gate's, gojo's, maybe world's of fun, hang out with sarah t.
get drunk, hang out with the 2 friends i might still have.
relax, and not think about anything. no worries about mark, work, or time.
empty out my head.
i'm a sad, pathetic, lonely individual.
something needs to change.